Velvet Night

Open your eyes and let your fantasy lead you to magical places being impatient and eager to rediscover some mystery for you,while dreaming in belief they are the only ones to still love and long for you.;your life isn't about false promises or lost hopes and illusions to come with a song of sad vibrations;neither is faded painting of missing lives,and a kettle of crying souls to suffer their pains on Earth that you got caught in;it is about your vision,inner beauty,world you hold while dreams never ending and dreamers never lose their faith...let them walk into your life and make you happy and desired.,for every single wish has own gate and takes your permission to live on....let your life be absorbing for all the beauties that your mind conceives and soul longs for...

After the Misdeed

             
First key of the gate


As i and my companion were approaching the gate i tried to remember what my spiritual shepherd told me:
"There are three keys to decide about you and your destiny;First we unlock at the moment of our birth;and it is the time when we are still unaware of all the beauty of love,although she has her most magnificent moments we shall ever feel.....The time when she is purest and warmest in own appearance."

I was a little puzzled,rose my eye brow and looked at him astonished:
-What i am eager to know is love i wish to live right now,as all grown up girl....please, paint my dream....

"Never beg for anything,it will only move you away from achieving what is destined for you..
Only restive souls lose happiness...be patient while listening and waiting for dreams..."

-I was waiting so long for something one receives so easy and early while being so young..-.i said eagerly again

-That is fine what you say,but you forgot of yourself and secret you unrolled ...never thought it might make someone angry?"

Of course that i knew and quelled from his answer,so i didn't mention anything about it..


"There are certain rules to be respected and never broken;i believe you crossed the border between dreams and reality,and let your dreams walk into real life ...only greatest LOVE is allowed to leap over the fence."

Oh,i am so happy i possessed it......and.jumped of happiness while saying it.


-It is truth,but you played foul again...and punishment was cruel..You got divine gift,eternal Youth which is only the adornment of a Goddess..and you know what happens soon one of them makes a God angry....she is scourged ...and that is how you lost your great love you found once...

Is there any hope for me?- i asked,by staying seemingly in peace and not finishing my question..


-I am afraid that you will never recover such a bounty of dreaminess beyond the time.....and there is no trade between dreams..they are too noble and sublime to be changed so easy..
my advice is to keep dreaming...even you feel how there is no hope anymore for you and your love,once you met a great DREAM it is expected of you to dream on...that way you redeem your past sins and renew all respect that a highest dream deserves...

Thank you-i shouted joyful and happy to have received new incentive...

-So i really helped you..i knew that you thought of letting go of all your expectations...and don't forget to listen to me carefully;there are many who miss happiness for they are not awake enough to listen roaring whispers from wishful souls to have lost their love....every one has own Knight of Heart.."

Oh,how beautiful is the sound of your words!-again i could not hide my delight...Knight of Love!Do you know how happy you made every girl now,each one in the world!
And more for myself i continued with my musing...even i don't bring back my great love,there is still hope for me to have a beautiful dream and my own Knight to think of me.....

"In my book of life there is no difference between a child and an adult;they are simple souls and being spiritual without age...
and everyone has the same smile ..no one is jealous and envy,.......in an earthly world you can open the gate and be presented with only one desire.. ..if it were fulfilled,the second one you must forget...since you reigned two great secrets,it became a bit complicated.."

I didn't know love might be a SECRET..-i was very surprised...all about.i knew was a wish ..

"Every great achievement consumes a secret ..and never shines without unlocking a gateway to lead to a treasure of secrets..and You, only You unlocked the two by now..more than is possible for a human being.".

Now i got insulted-If it is truth,why do exist all angels to keep and watch on people?I suppose,in order to help us when we make a mistake...


"Even the angels are not able to do all miracles that Almighty deliberately left behind...."


Sadly,i slightly bowed my head and let my eye wander around,secretly looking for my Knight....and i still have no answer and not sure about my future..though,there is a thing to annoy me and i needed to ask one question more..


VELVET NIGHT

Dear spiritual father,somehow i feel that regardless of a tiny hope i have about a love on my way,i believe that whole truth is not in visible world..even obscured, it might appear at once and surprise me as it did first time i got to know my great love..i still remember velvet night when we met each other;,i didn't expect anything but a simple party i was called on....just nothing!But it was most beautiful meeting of love in my life!.......Yes!There must be so..in the moments when it is stillest around and i am free from any burden of expectations,there will be greatest surprise ..i shall live on with such a belief,i am convinced in that....
It is real truth for everyone who reads my lines...it is a MAGIC you wait for..every magic is about surprise....just refresh your memory of a moment when your heart beat strongest and whole atmosphere before that..you will see that i speak right..
Let it be SILENCE and don't expect anything..for being GREATEST and in power to take part in one's destiny,God loves to play with you;only in anger he can deprive you of happiness..just be quiet and servile to earn mercy again.
Have you ever seen a rainbow while expecting one in the sky?


There was no answer but a brightest smile i have ever seen while he walked away from me and gave it on leaving....


My Little Notice
I wish for you a Velvet Night

Painting
"After the Misdeed"
by Jean Beraud


Painting
Blue Night
by Atelier Hofhuizen & Van Dongen


Hofhuizen-Vandongen

Love has come down from Heaven

"In a ghostly hour i lost my love'
O, sweet illusion,bring me another one,
The price is small for a bit of my happiness;
I won't steal or lend,
You have my permission to make a cheat on me,
For i am but a lonely servant of yours,
Be you from heaven or the hell
In a ghostly hour i lost my love.
It doesn't matter any more to me,
As i sold my soul once ago;
And the only hope i have now,
Is that glowing span
While being in the full sense of myself,
Agreed to have a crumb of your glorious mercy!

                                                                                                    

Since my birth,love has been an inevitable companion of my every day's life while i never assented to any ordinary consumption of her.Love is too powerful and magical to be just an usual visitor of many to travel across all planetary and starring worlds out there.From the very beginning,whether there was a fireball explosion,filled by pure particles of energy,carried here and there on the pallets of the sky,by making a whirl around planetary heads and spreading their hands eagerly into space,or taking a religious approach and thinking of God's will and power to make all things happen,i strong believe in the existence of catholic love to incorporate and unite all of us and everything together.
First thought was about Love,as soon as God wished for bringing into life a picture of man and woman to live together.In addition to God's command,there is a natural aspect of human need to love and be loved;it is perpetual aspiration to make every day a holiday.Being caught in mind hemisphere,love paves its path for beauty as another aspect of magical travelers.

The Stolen Kiss

First and main recognition of love is within ourselves
I love myself
I respect myself
I know myself
Primal presumption to live a healthy life is being in love with yourself.
There might be hours to torture ourselves with hate and looking for where its source comes from;some hints of possible scenario going back to an idea of rivalry to have conceived envy and hate.If we were to follow our thoughts,sometimes spiced with jealousy and odium,it would become clear that the hell's cradle rests in our minds.There is nothing to come out of us,which has not made its way through the splice of our thoughts.
The most famous sprout coming from the darkness,is Satan.I don't know if you ever felt his presence and what your impressions would look like,but i believe,my own encounter might be a good illustration.Being obsessed,appears to be an exceptional experience,from a point of view;from the other one,it is really the "Hell".He doesn't allow to live in love,and being a great opponent of your happiness,his desire is you never meet and reunite with your lover.Once deprived of love,with mangled feelings and without home,Satan was condemned to live as vagabond for all the times.
Thereby if you are alone and no one holds your hand,,think of the past when someone earned this fatal destiny for you.As i rout over my past lives while pulling drapery to the left and right of my view,i can see,for a moment,the face of my previous life and colors to paint my being.It is black and white like dress of a sinful nun who never paid ransom for her sins.For what one could think different about something to constantly escape from their possession,unless there was a great sin to seal their fate.

Soon as self-willed Eva,made her own way in picking an apple from the tree of knowledge of good and evil,by leaving Adam in ignorance,and making an act of cheating,LOVE became an ILLUSION for ever.....only true Love survives in heaven's cradle...
True lovers are damned to long for each other forever and stand their passion drifts through endless cosmic expanse;fortunately enough,some of them might win just one day of real earthly love..and they should consider themselves happy for such a mercy...
And i know,i already lived through my blessed moment in life,had a glimpse of happiness by knowing great love...now i can only watch its petals scattered high in the air,like a seducing and beautiful flower being deprived by cruelty of a storm of its bloom,and condemned to grieve for its beauty forever..
You can have only one GREAT LOVE in life..all the rest are illusions..more or less...
By keeping that in your mind,you agree to a handful of little lies around your love;don't ask more than it is possible and don't undervalue what is sent to you..take it like a packet,wrapped with ribbons in colors that you don't like,and imagine how yellow one shines red or purple...change the colors in your mind and take them for the truth..how many times in life we come down to such sweet illusions?-almost every day as we breathe.

                                            In a ghostly hour i lost my love'
                                        O, sweet illusion,bring me another one,
                                      The price is small for a bit of my happiness;
                                                I won't steal or lend,
                                        You have my permission to make a cheat on me,
                                          For i am but a lonely servant of yours,
                                             Be you from heaven or the hell;
                                                In a ghostly hour i lost my love.
                                            It doesn't matter any more for me,
                                                 As i sold my soul once ago;
                                                And the only hope i have now,
                                                   Is that glowing span
                                        While being in the full sense of myself,
                                     Agreed to have a crumb of your glorious mercy!  


This little verse comes not from a dreamy mind to hold his pen in a rushed time but as lone echo of past lovers,whose souls travel through the time to find a glimpse of happiness when the renewed lovers in some another age meet each other,while pieces of their love warm lost souls once again...
I am not the lonely prisoner of his will.Many a lover found themselves in a character who rests in gold pages of a book.I myself recognize beautiful Margarita and her unrestrained youth,to be my reciprocal image coming right from the famous novel by Mikhail Bulgakov.
Margarita is the minion of both God and Devil,a noble privilege,and as such not available to everyone.Only a chosen few is allowed to meet astonishing creatures from the light and darkness and meet an exceptional destiny.Sometimes it is permission to break the limits to separate reality from magic,and like a wizard to join all mystical beings in holding of SECRETS ..sometimes,they are given too much and the same taken just in a wink,for the glory has its own price..
Margarita conquers both realms-light and darkness,by her love of Master and unusual young look she kept in her older years.
Where Devil draws his breaths,there must be something "marvelous" in air .......
I listen to him as whispers...i am deprived of Love,but have power to make your dreams come true..and being without feelings my reward will be your punishment alike!


 My dear demon,i know you,i received and embraced your award,and your "revenge".

 LOVE must be fed

Love revives its strength in your inspiration.Be focused on your hobby;your love of the nature gets its satisfaction in long walks along the forests' paths..go out and find solace with the birds in flight;having a nice garden is perfect rest to cherish beautiful flowers and make short breaks in meditation;love of books is my favorite,there is no greater enjoyment but holding some yellow pages to meet my curiosity and satisfy exploring spirit;put some of your thoughts on paper or transmit it to the screen.Love your work whatever to be,and wherever you are,and in the lack of passion,get it compensated by own talent to find some little pleasures around it,employ your imagination .....

There are many patterns of loves..wrap them with the ribbon in a matching color...
sometimes you give your love away with no strong pretension .....just an easy sympathy and affection
sometimes you love another being as close soul to answer your aspirations and inner beauty
sometimes it is only a hint of possible love..
sometimes it is destiny to take you to the other side of the world and prevent from meeting your love again..
sometimes it is great LOVE to be swallowed and prevented from realization by demon's power....


My LOVE is not being from this world,it aspires for and wanders among the souls fell from the height and doomed to suffer;my love will never reach its destination where faithful hearts meet each other again;my love is an unfinished story;she is not under God's grace;my love suffers some past sins and takes many centuries to fulfill itself;my love brought in a verdict of guilty on me and damned to enchant everyone but never to belong anyone.......




Painting
"The Stolen Kiss"
by Jean-Honore Fragonard