Moon Saga-Such A Day You Wait For

'She walks in beauty,like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:'

Lord Byron

Continued


Once they showed me the crater filled with purple -glazing lake,to give away love secrets to anyone who reflected himself in the silken and mystic shadows.For the moon was born out of the greatest love,conceived in God's vision of two beautiful habitable planets to orbit each other and feel enamored forever.But the story took different course,and Earth received majestic light to nest life,while Moon rested in stillness and darkness,immersing herself in dreams.If you ever want something so desperately you must look up to the glowing rim,an absorbing power of the undefined and infinite.The moon performed its duty proudly,throwing golden shine across the earthly paths,constantly keeping the attention of curious walkers,who are pretty much aware that nobility and sublimity are equal to craving.

When the midnight marked the top of the Rosebud Hill,the sublime fairy entered the cordierite anteroom where i and one of fairies,impatiently waited for her.

-Why did you come to me-she asked me- I am not accustomed to humans,so,please,let me get a closer look at you.
I myself was amazed at her beauty,which embodied the shape of spherical dreams from a distant star, subtle and sheer,wrapped in the bewildered and violent mystique.

-You came to me,looking for truth,but most stories have already told..there are many rewriters and fake thinkers,the ones to boast with untrue memories and display stolen pictures.Many of dreamers were forced to find comfort in some kind of isolation,when loneliness,after all,comes like natural and predictable choice.
One can attach himself to truth or lies,and then,after opening the eyes,both the liar and the trusted one see the light,which is correct unless we remember that the shine comes from inside.

                                                         
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-I know i was foolish,and ensnared by vanity,i was frivolous,....

-You thought that things you believed in can't be spoiled or exposed to decay,as they could resist anything.Even though there is an acknowledged thing,something to survive without your attention and care,give it your love anyway.I know that many people desperately try to recover what they used to have...health,love,beliefs,wealth,praying to God you believe in..even so,they don't do that properly....

-Don't judge them too strong,life is hard-i tried to melt her words..

-The way they live is wrong...a moment is like eternity,harmonize your unselfishness with the limitless sky and think how most beautiful things will yet to come.. feed your spirit on the presumptions of self worthiness and attraction to miraculous achievements.
You go to the churches,to light a candle and whisper prayers,doing it like a routine,without hearty and deep contemplation. ...however if you don't suffer from the bottom of your heart and love sincerely,all is in vain.I felt ashamed,remembering the faces seen randomly along the way,but honored with the glints of light and smell of incense to save another memory.
And you hope that a single act of goodness,or a silent prayer will bring about changes you long for...as well as your coming to me and asking for forgiveness?...i am not your God!

-I know,but i experienced some visions,predominant appearances to resist my sense,and believed there must be something more and hidden from me.

-You think,praying solely,you can separate yourself from the other people's lives..?Don't you feel
 that your appeal concerns everyone's one..you must not be selfish!-her voice flitted by..

Are you happy?
-No,i am NOT!
-Why?
-Because i hate people...
-Do people love you?
-I don't know ,i don't care..
-Who do you think to change your life then?
-What? should i love somebody first?
no voice

-To bring your love back,you must call for one's devotion and favor some other time.
.
and then,she told me a tale:
There are endless spaces and as many stars in the universe as your unrecorded dreams...each one of them considers itself to be most respectful and beautiful.Just a try to steal the shine from one another,is an unconscious likeness to your dream,as the lover turns into hater,and you get hurt.Jealousy is furious and evil,yet sometimes it brings about some goodness.Elem,the conspiracy reigns,that when the two who stand face to face,while shining smiles and sympathy,the truth is they each fantasize about their greatness and glory,neglecting achievements and looking secretly down upon the other.Then one day,which in the realm of the spherical dreams,comports with the bliss of your greatest memory,all the circulating energies,blowing sparkles to transcend light,are merged into brilliance,possessing beauty and power,and being capable of passing miraculous power on the earth..if you,by chance,found yourself at the certain place in such blissful moment of creation,you would certainly experience the most beautiful day in your life.
Such an ephemeral bliss my dear,is able to fulfill your expectations!And such a day you wait for,,!

And she continued-now,you can only ask for keeping your visions alive,i shall do my magic to revive your belief and remove a curse from you.
Slowly,in the accordance with distant stars to spread shine but stay quiet,she walked to the nicest and shadiest corner of the chambre,and after taking off a cryptic key from her collar,unlocked the translucent wicket in the nook;a few seconds later,i noticed a spherical shrine radiating glittering light to travel faster as she approached me;then,the case blew up with varied,shapely and colorful stones..

-Chose one you like most-she said.

Now,bewitching caprice of my nature directed my reflection.,..choice is tricky,delusive and persistent like a dream,infusing hopes and aspirations into infinite possibilities;then again it is so fascinating,for dreams are in conspiracy with death,and come from the very source of the knowledge,scrabbling obscurity from the core and revealing the secrets buried deep in the blurring and mysterious space.

Nevertheless,i have always put my faith in the grace of spiritual spheres,leaving my fears and doubts under the skyline as i walk the rough earthly paths.Then I flashed a smile at her and fearlessly said---But,somebody else already did it for me.!I believe such a precious gift springs from the most unimaginable glimpse inside the space,along with omnipresent spells and underground secrets,giving birth to dreams and magic.I thought in this imperceptible moment of time,that when one gives you something so precious,you must be thankful whatever you receive...dreams and magic descend an unbeaten path,not revealing their pains and sights to everyone.A poor human being is still lacking in profound understanding.

She was a bit surprised,and modeling a smile of the glee on her face,put a brilliant in my hand,letting me know how happiness mimicries magic..you need to cast a handful of spell to bring it upon yourself.

-It will lead you on your way and protect in your dreams..-melodic voice followed her gesture-keep it with yourself all the time and walk in beauty,to remind you how beautiful and cared you are!



She Walks in Beauty

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Lord Byron

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Fantastic Land

“So come with me, where dreams are born,

and time is never planned. Just think of happy things,

and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!” 
 ― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

I am not someone who can say truth about our origin,and such a power stays hidden in the caves of our imagination,to only sometimes dazzle into remote sensing to get a glimpse of eternity.The most desirable thing in all human existence is to live forever.One day i decided to sell my dreams for the sake of truth..and you guess,i did it with a little help of my miraculous friend.
With magic wings he brought me into wondrous land out there,where even our dreams jump over the stars to find souls dwelling beyond our fantastic assumptions and perspectives.Everything was perfect there:beautiful landscape to border on mystical clouds to puzzle with their shapes,singing birds to look for a bit of attention, gorgeous flowers to endanger the beauty of a thirsty rainbow,....and lots more.I had everything in my reach,and whatever i wished for i could get,even i moved here and there without any effort, and i enjoyed. Then there came some days when i started feeling like i miss something,in spite of all the abundance and everything which an earthly being longs for.
At first i felt i missed a book to read,but again,what kind of book would it be if there were not anything exciting,things to arise my curiosity and bring inspiration for writing?It is so bothering watching the same things every day without any change.And i asked my friend to let me spoil something and make it into new form,just to see what my feelings will be about it.

Blue Bird

He threw me some paints,but they were useless,for everything was perfect colored.....what to do?Then a thought crossed my mind:dear girl,i said to myself,pull a plant out of the ground,by force,of course,for what other way a poor human brain could imagine,and leave it without any drop of water.In my enthrallment i was so proud of my ingenuity,and eagerly waited for the first change in my Kingdom!What happened was not surprising,because we are so accustomed to all vandalisms of a man;.it was so simple to destroy something, so easy...as soon as plant lost her vivacity and colorfulness,i contentedly began my first creation!Greatest accomplishment i could afford myself since i landed on this 'strange' place.With great joy and pleasure i casted first hues of colors to paint it...and i made her look very beautiful!And i was content and happier....
My curiosity and thirst of changes were not fed,i needed more and more;even i was so naughty,that her sweet smell was not enough anymore,i wished new and different one...so i mixed some ingredients from her previous image,recycling them and producing a new fragrance.I believed it was much better and subtler than ever,and i was so satisfied and more happier...

My dear friend,who was always there when i needed him,felt that i missed a talk,so he kindly flied over all obstacles to separate our worlds,and said:
-I believe,some of mysteries that you were wrapped with during past years,had now disclosed themselves.. ...you wished for perfection,i gave it to you,but you were unsatisfied!

-All is wonderful,like in my fantasy,but i saw there was nothing for me to do...i can't simply just exist without doing anything!

-I knew what impressions and consequences it would bring to you...because you are such a creation to never find peace,and will always strive for changing and recreating all which exists as much as possible ...and.a restless spirit

-I did some harms,and i am so sorry..... i am afraid that more people will go after me...i am not a good example,and wonder why we all torture ourselves so much with final answers and destination...it is so simple puzzle,i saw it now..

-I am sure that you portend such an idea is not possible;everyone to follow you,would wish for himself another plant to recreate and satisfy his own ego and curiosity.If one were so powerful,he would destroy the entire land!Yes,that is truth!Keep beating your own ego dear girl....

I couldn't wish for more...it seemed to me that the tree was badly overgrown,i didn't like its 'BOAST" and thought of changing its destiny.My craziness went too far,i was almost jealous of plants....let alone a man..
I believed i could do everything better and more attractive...and i needed a book with rules to punish everyone who breaks them.I became even more selfish than a 'normal' human being,and wished they never had power to reach my 'place' and know what i learned.
Following conspiracy,i prevented everybody from living forever....never to possess such a beauty and inalterable condition of his own body..
Then i heard the voice of my wizard.
It is good having a friend at any time and anywhere......
And a lesson i learned:never sell your dreams for the sake of truth....for life unrolls all by itself




To be continued


“The moment you doubt whether you can fly,
you cease for ever to be able to do it.”
― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan


Painting
Blue Bird
Konstantin Somov

From the Archive
PETER PAN IN KENSINGTON GARDENS

Secret of Youth Part II

Continued from previous part...
" -If you listened to me carefully,you should be aware of past souls to walk
in dreams.. ...they don't like daylight and never give themselves up before
the darkness.It is lesson from last time,about beauty.....

-So,it seems everything has own order,regardless of being live or dead!

-It may sound astonishing but it is the very truth.-a man's power lies in his ability to receive and hold everything in own consciousness,and make it a source of the fulfillment of all desires.

MIND is the greatest secret,yet unknown to a man as a whole.All the world you keep in your mind,and everything is possible.
But it needs peace and love too.

As soon as you get yourself in the condition of serene mind everything around you becomes jubilant and dances its true color...

The Rainbows

There is something i miss here..-You said colored,but i didn't see the hues of my joy and happiness...it is hidden,wisest way....of course.......

-It is light to hide its colors and only in the moments of greatest happiness makes an appearance in outer world..... you see it like a rainbow;your mind does the same....it is the waves and you can't see them,they live on another frequency.

You say light,but .....soon i said that,it reached my reason that it is mind to have own colors,so i can feel ......  ....there is no difference of being night or day.

-It is your aura..radiance around your whole being!Every one of us radiate;it is enough to make a contact with somebody,and regardless of being near or far away,you can feel their radiance.If one make you uncomfortable then it appears that such person has abundant negativity.....look for others to match your level of awareness and stay with them..

-You speak about "power of mind",i practiced on my own...i can direct my thoughts to something or someone;sometimes there might be a negative wave,which is not good,i constantly think of that and how to help myself staying healthy.
-Harmony is about matching energies-isn't?

-All the nature lives in a harmony,and humans make lots of unfortunate events by sending their negative impulses around.
I kept thinking about the flower and the smell i felt,and it was very interesting for me to know more.It caught the attention of my friend very soon.-Flower as a living being is able to receive our energy..so it can be an answer on the signals you send.

I remembered a time when i was lost in some kind of obscurity,which misled me into recognizing the clarity between worlds...

-Madness is just a state of confusion...too much thinking and too much negativity..that is why it has been painted with lots of striking colors...

I immediately thought of Vincent Van Gogh and his madness to bring him into making the most attractive colors ever...

-An artist is the gifted man to see more than ordinary eye...it is the colors coming from his soul to make him paint own feelings.
Though they are only the servants....it is the glory of God to shine over enchanting landscapes,mountains,rivers and all the rest beautiful views around the world.

And i myself while writing seems to be just a servant..at least i am trying to use such a grandiose will and make something more than an ordinary life offers me.

To approve the meaning of our journey i asked permission to perform magic and put some color on a strange flower that we walked by.I lent some of a purple hue from a nearby flower already painted,and scattered on its fragile body..What a surprise!It was my lilac,favorite flower!Someone before me took his chance and painted my lilacs!I was thinking about the lilacs in my village i love the most,where i grew up surrounded with the trees and that lovable picture became an everlasting memory.I loved its seducing smell and beautiful purple petals,and began to trust how someone made them purple because of me!Nothing happens by accident,and again everything happens by accident!

Water Lilies Red

Even while going through an unrecognizable and murky world,some prior warmth transmitted itself and brought my lovely memories.What a love can do!
I was very happy and thankful for the chance to paint the flower of my youngest days.
Never miss a chance of making a wonder around!

Now i know you think of most loved and most beautiful flowers.Competition!That was next idea i got!My wise friend stole my thought-In LOVE there should not be competition!Love is not supposed to be a subject of competition...you should just love someone without making rivals..Love is such a serene and noble feeling,it doesn't deserve being insulted!
If you make it the field of a game,then there is no genuine love,or you have no respect and knowledge of the truest and most precious gifts on Earth.

Imagine what would happen if the whole nature started a contest!Go into meadow and look around ..how many wonderful flowers to grow!Crimson roses,Blue Daisy,Water Lily which gained its fame from the paintings of Claude Monet,seducing and charming Viola,white-yellow Narcissus,Iris,named after the Goddess Iris-Rainbow,orchids in all imaginable colors..,.......


-They don't fight but simply find and keep a place for themselves...a wild rose growing lonely on limestone or sand dunes,saves its beautiful shape and scent.It learns us even more,about how to stay beautiful and in love,while being alone.It looks into the Sun to feed its body,and during the nights talks to the Moon ...some of Moon's dreams fall on its petals and keep them in love until the next dream.

I learned from the Moonlight to let love come into my dreams.They keep me being loved and blessed till i fall in love again.



SPECTRAL COLORS

Spectral Colors

Newton first used the word spectrum (Latin for "appearance" or "apparition") in print in 1671 in describing his experiments in optics.
Newton divided the spectrum into seven named colors: red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and violet

The visible spectrum is the portion of the electromagnetic spectrum that is visible to (can be detected by) the human eye. Electromagnetic radiation in this range of wavelengths is called visible light or simply light. A typical human eye will respond to wavelengths from about 390 to 750 nm

Disks of Newton

PAINTINGS

Water Lilies Red
by Claude Monet 1914

"My garden is my most beautiful masterpiece...."

"It took me time to understand my waterlilies. I had planted them for the pleasure of it; I grew them without ever thinking of painting them"....Quote by Claude Monet.

The Rainbows,El Pardo
by Joaquin Sorolla 1907
Joaquin Sorolla

Disks of Newton
by Frantisek  Kupka

Secret of Youth

I assume that LOVE was born with coloring the living world.A simple explanation comes from our strongest emotions we feel while being in love,which become lost as the time flies.Then a place where we have been together,or a thing we shared,has not that seducing and magical meaning anymore.....resembling some colors to have fainted,and turned themselves into pale compositions..
It was love to beget a beautiful color and give the sense to everything.

The way i have prepared myself,was excellent point to start out a new voyage with my friend.
-Never look behind in order to bring back the same emotions about some past times and places,they forgot about themselves and lost previous smell and taste-he said wisely as he did when we talk about serious things.
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-What if i can't let some memories go of me?

-Just hope for another color,previous one has certainly lost its glow.The whole Earth breathes through the great agony to renew itself,by giving births to new lives and saying farewell to old ones.
Love and thirst of knowledge will never die,and people endlessly strive for new truths and loves.

It feels great -i thought about my writing to never bore my readers....and was good for my confidence in writing;as soon as i start something new it would become a beautiful story for i brought it into the life together with you.

The Time of The Lilacs

-There is a constant mistake about us,by always longing for everything to be as we please...but things come and happen in the same way as energy of the Universe moves around.-my wise friend said "us" i am very thankful for that.

-Is it an accident to determinate what the colors to put on yourself and how to paint your everyday life?
Can you choose one to be dominant?

-I know you still dream about the love you had once ..what happened?-a voice of tenderness came from Wizard.

-The greatest and happiest event in my life i was not able to keep alive ..There was too much happiness,too much perfection,..i couldn't stand such an abundance..a human weakness...and a lesson we never learned from the nature,to simply show off our talents and beauty without fears and envy;that is why we take pains and sorrow better than happiness.
we spoiled ourselves alone...we did that,we don't need to search for another being to blame.

-When love is lost,it opens vibrating gates for underground creatures to hunt for our souls and walk into our lives.It is easier for them to come to us,for an abundance of feelings,becomes food for such invisible visitors coming from the darkness.

-It appears with the loss of energy-my conclusion followed,and presumed his answer-Does it mean that all our faults influence the Earth?

-Think of that like negative energy,once collected and erupted from dissatisfaction.

-You mean about volcano,of course..

-Volcano is the suffering of the Earth,like an endless circle of births and deaths,and renewing the whole Universe.But the condition of our body and mind is an easy target for every creature to lurk from the gloom.Being healthy and with bright mind,you are strong and radiate the LIGHT,which frightens them.And light is LOVE .....just to remind you...
Enemy searches for your weakness,and whenever you hate yourself it is an open appeal for troubles ...

-How to get my love back?-i returned to my feelings,being aware that such a visitor played its role in my love,a long time ago/and i really hated myself in that time,but i didn't say anything more/ -Can anyone help me,or maybe i should ask silent demons to make it for me?

-You can wait for a hundred years some things to happen,and they will never be....unless you go to meet them.
So clever,so wise...i thought,and as every wisdom to speak its truth,remains in silence.

Suddenly i felt the scent of the flowers.....
and looked into the eyes of my sweet friend.;there was a confirmation of our magical whisperings,for if you didn't know we whispered,in order not to wake up all the little malicious souls..
-Your tenderness and craving brought to life another sort of flowers..being fed with your love it opened itself to the world.

It is amazing!Imagine,i can make new kind of flower by simply wishing for it;love is by itself a strong desire to breathe new life into everything,or dress something into new robes.
It matters for all the process of renewing the world and us together with animals ...all the living world.
I portended.....it was all about Youth and most desired and magnificent secret of staying young forever!
-bring your best state of mind into life and you have just renewed own organism,cells of your body and mind are refreshed ...and now look at yourself in the mirror ,you will see how you look much younger!
What a precious secret i give away for free!

My wisest friend had an answer ready for me:-What you give,is included in the whole progress you make in self improvement.There must not be any fake thought,any attempt to cheat!Do everything with genuine heart and without restraint!

Of course,love assumes pure heart and honest approach.Jump of happiness now!By means of love you are able to rejuvenate yourself every day...the more love,the youngest you!

-Even more,-said my friend-you can change the world by making new lives and turning existing ones into new form.It is your chance to make some things happen as you please.A lazy and decrepit mind is an issue,not only for an individual, than for all the Universe....yes, laziness is great obstacle for a human being to make more dreams come true.

Orchid and Three Hummingbirds

-As you mention dreams,should i be careful about bringing my real habits and thinking into them?I know that some intensive thoughts i have during the day come into my dreams the same night.

Dreams are very powerful...a dream can make you fall in love with someone-i knew,your first thought was about love..with a smile whispered Wizard.
You should be careful whom to neglect in reality,and let them come into someone else's dream..
Being able to catch everything to happen on the both side of our reality and in each time's dimension,dreams don't recognize whether a soul is from life or death...It is only we to make a difference,and confusion happens in dream..that is how you can speak to and love someone while sleeping.

It seems so gracious,and next time when i have my dreams colored with love,i shall know that a darling missed her lover and forgot how to love
-Dreams are our ally as well;someone you loved might be protective in your dream.

Once again i got a chance to show off myself-But there is a difference between dreams of night and day.
I can't remember i ever had a nice dream during my daily rest.

-If you listened to me carefully,you should be aware of past souls to walk in dreams.. ...they don't like daylight and never give themselves up before the darkness.It is lesson from last time,about beauty.....


Paintings
The Time of The Lilacs
by Sophie Gengembre Anderson

"Orchid and Three Hummingbirds"
by Martin Johnson Heade /1819-1904/

Velvet Night

Open your eyes and let your fantasy lead you to magical places being impatient and eager to rediscover some mystery for you,while dreaming in belief they are the only ones to still love and long for you.;your life isn't about false promises or lost hopes and illusions to come with a song of sad vibrations;neither is faded painting of missing lives,and a kettle of crying souls to suffer their pains on Earth that you got caught in;it is about your vision,inner beauty,world you hold while dreams never ending and dreamers never lose their faith...let them walk into your life and make you happy and desired.,for every single wish has own gate and takes your permission to live on....let your life be absorbing for all the beauties that your mind conceives and soul longs for...

After the Misdeed

             
First key of the gate


As i and my companion were approaching the gate i tried to remember what my spiritual shepherd told me:
"There are three keys to decide about you and your destiny;First we unlock at the moment of our birth;and it is the time when we are still unaware of all the beauty of love,although she has her most magnificent moments we shall ever feel.....The time when she is purest and warmest in own appearance."

I was a little puzzled,rose my eye brow and looked at him astonished:
-What i am eager to know is love i wish to live right now,as all grown up girl....please, paint my dream....

"Never beg for anything,it will only move you away from achieving what is destined for you..
Only restive souls lose happiness...be patient while listening and waiting for dreams..."

-I was waiting so long for something one receives so easy and early while being so young..-.i said eagerly again

-That is fine what you say,but you forgot of yourself and secret you unrolled ...never thought it might make someone angry?"

Of course that i knew and quelled from his answer,so i didn't mention anything about it..


"There are certain rules to be respected and never broken;i believe you crossed the border between dreams and reality,and let your dreams walk into real life ...only greatest LOVE is allowed to leap over the fence."

Oh,i am so happy i possessed it......and.jumped of happiness while saying it.


-It is truth,but you played foul again...and punishment was cruel..You got divine gift,eternal Youth which is only the adornment of a Goddess..and you know what happens soon one of them makes a God angry....she is scourged ...and that is how you lost your great love you found once...

Is there any hope for me?- i asked,by staying seemingly in peace and not finishing my question..


-I am afraid that you will never recover such a bounty of dreaminess beyond the time.....and there is no trade between dreams..they are too noble and sublime to be changed so easy..
my advice is to keep dreaming...even you feel how there is no hope anymore for you and your love,once you met a great DREAM it is expected of you to dream on...that way you redeem your past sins and renew all respect that a highest dream deserves...

Thank you-i shouted joyful and happy to have received new incentive...

-So i really helped you..i knew that you thought of letting go of all your expectations...and don't forget to listen to me carefully;there are many who miss happiness for they are not awake enough to listen roaring whispers from wishful souls to have lost their love....every one has own Knight of Heart.."

Oh,how beautiful is the sound of your words!-again i could not hide my delight...Knight of Love!Do you know how happy you made every girl now,each one in the world!
And more for myself i continued with my musing...even i don't bring back my great love,there is still hope for me to have a beautiful dream and my own Knight to think of me.....

"In my book of life there is no difference between a child and an adult;they are simple souls and being spiritual without age...
and everyone has the same smile ..no one is jealous and envy,.......in an earthly world you can open the gate and be presented with only one desire.. ..if it were fulfilled,the second one you must forget...since you reigned two great secrets,it became a bit complicated.."

I didn't know love might be a SECRET..-i was very surprised...all about.i knew was a wish ..

"Every great achievement consumes a secret ..and never shines without unlocking a gateway to lead to a treasure of secrets..and You, only You unlocked the two by now..more than is possible for a human being.".

Now i got insulted-If it is truth,why do exist all angels to keep and watch on people?I suppose,in order to help us when we make a mistake...


"Even the angels are not able to do all miracles that Almighty deliberately left behind...."


Sadly,i slightly bowed my head and let my eye wander around,secretly looking for my Knight....and i still have no answer and not sure about my future..though,there is a thing to annoy me and i needed to ask one question more..


VELVET NIGHT

Dear spiritual father,somehow i feel that regardless of a tiny hope i have about a love on my way,i believe that whole truth is not in visible world..even obscured, it might appear at once and surprise me as it did first time i got to know my great love..i still remember velvet night when we met each other;,i didn't expect anything but a simple party i was called on....just nothing!But it was most beautiful meeting of love in my life!.......Yes!There must be so..in the moments when it is stillest around and i am free from any burden of expectations,there will be greatest surprise ..i shall live on with such a belief,i am convinced in that....
It is real truth for everyone who reads my lines...it is a MAGIC you wait for..every magic is about surprise....just refresh your memory of a moment when your heart beat strongest and whole atmosphere before that..you will see that i speak right..
Let it be SILENCE and don't expect anything..for being GREATEST and in power to take part in one's destiny,God loves to play with you;only in anger he can deprive you of happiness..just be quiet and servile to earn mercy again.
Have you ever seen a rainbow while expecting one in the sky?


There was no answer but a brightest smile i have ever seen while he walked away from me and gave it on leaving....


My Little Notice
I wish for you a Velvet Night

Painting
"After the Misdeed"
by Jean Beraud


Painting
Blue Night
by Atelier Hofhuizen & Van Dongen


Hofhuizen-Vandongen

Unwrapping my Mystic Packet

There is a sleepy and mystic land to keep memory of dreams,and an old white man to sit in the underworld room.During the time of my fantastic visit ,i tried to get some answers to my origin and knowledge to lie buried there from the primordial time.

Who are you?-i asked,as i let my thought fly.

I am an ordinary man who saves everyone's DREAMS over the centuries-said the old man

If you were an ordinary man,you would not live forever ..so tell me the truth-i was curious..

I can not tell it a random visitor....and it is more a SECRET.

What is the secret?

You must find it by yourself-old man stayed enigmatic with his answer

May i ask someone to tell me more about it?

No,it can not be..
You need to know it by yourself,because every one of them has different parents and dreams; there might be one to originate from Cerberus,another one comes from Phoenix... you will meet Centaur,Griffin, and Cyclopes....Titans,like Rhea and Cronus and many others.And everyone responds to different sounds and pictures;once you were lost in darkness,it takes great skills to see and recognize enemies in right moment,there are plenty to hate you...for you may be have more beautiful dreams...

Whether my fancy or strong desire,yet i pictured that a DRAGON was my keeper of dreams..and more... something like my parent,my first breath..........

Red Dragon

By the grace of his Majesty,our dreams live out our memories and keep walking on ancient tracks of lost worlds.On a gracious trace i saved my loving memory of early childhood when 'everything' has begun.
In the childhood begins our past, present and future...there is an eye to grab from every angle of our unreal dreams.As soon as the light makes its way through early patchworks of the morning's sky,we face majestic horizon to open before our eyes,full with mythological creatures to have lost their lands and dreams,and started hunting our obscurity to throw some light onto our lives and future,till recover our untold truths.
As a good catcher you could capture peerless drops of forecast to guide you through life toward your destiny,on condition you were brave enough to follow them.
I myself,or might be by mercy of someone else's will ,made a gateway for all the convey of two heads dogs,mystical phoenix to reborn anew from ashes,dragons with fire in their gullets and dark visitors from the hell to follow Lucifer after his fall from the heaven,to take me on their hidden paths,putting a great challenge before me,and testing my will and endurance.
There are no great successful stories without great dreams!
Now that dream is not my possession,at least not exclusive one,for i share them with all the row of mystic creatures to accompany me during my journey.By allowing them to come into my life i crossed the line between light and darkness,and hopefully expect my dream come true.I am aware that there must have been some mistake of mine,followed by punishment and obsession,after which i redeemed my sins.
I do not think how my presence is the only realm of my life.....There has always been another world and reality for me;every moment hath its past and future,unseen and smashed civilizations,some projected landscapes waiting for new dreamers.
There was no way to come back soon i left my foot on the sky blue path..i knew that a return always led to disaster and misery.There is still present an image of Lot's wife to turn into a pillar of salt for being heedless.
Worlds vanish and new ones rise.. ....
The same is about life,having lost previously one,you build and live new dream.Every possible attempt to change course of own destiny is a gamble, faced with all possible scenarios and outcomes.Freedom is a devil's work,it gives you so much,but it could take away the all from you in the blink of an eye.
Freedom takes a distant behavior,or at least empowers you to make a choice of few things you like best and the rest to leave for the others.I am sure you hold in memory some tales to rest now on a shelf in your room,with taste of dust like a hero entering into cave with lost treasure,to seize the all,unless there is no a catch...and there is always one.....sometimes it was a secret floor to open and swallow them,or a pike to punch their bowels,maybe a monster to live deep in hidden chamber,or an adder winding its way..
Now it is the legend about Holy Grail to inevitably catch mine and everyone's attention for its most attractive secret of eternal Youth.There were many who tried to steal the secret,and lots of legends emerged over the centuries.My instinct tells me that everyone made mistake...to win over the Kingdom of secret worlds,you need to stay true to yourself and let all creatures on service in lost lands to visit and reign over you,or to stand hunting of a neglected and jealous being coming right from the darkness.

I am willing to unwrap my magical  packet with hidden knowledge and share it with you...for what the purpose of Beauty is,if it is not seen by someone else's eye?In addition ,my secret is mystic folded,quite opposite to many which are bald and dreadful,and that way alluring and pleasant for making a record in one's memory.In the end,every one of them becomes visible as there is no one with wings powerful enough to run away and bury  themselves for good.
First pictures to dig their pit to the surface of my earliest days and stay trapped there,reach back to my age of four years......i am dressed in a short and plaid coat,and my father holds me in his arms;i believe it was on a special occasion.There is another one to be early memorized,about a big fire set in the center of my village during the carnival celebration to take place during the winter time.I still remember that amazing fire,flames of which,rose high into the shadow.

Being thoughtful since my childhood,when i made my first steps into conscious exploration of life around me,natural way of my development had to be the meditation.Loneliness and an isolated place were not strange and hard for me to stand;sometimes it was sitting on a branch of the tree in my village yard.The first five years of my life i spent in my birthplace,some 32 km from the town where i live now.The most impressed in early meditation was a recall,nestled in my inner being,to whisper me how my 'strange' and mystic forecast was postponed till my mature age .....Expectation is like a beauty...as hunter of dirty landscapes and misty sky players,in your fancy,while painting a canvas,you hope to paint most beautiful ones.Even the darkest scenery is in your reach to make new wonder.

Whether for reasons to spring from such distinct part of my life or not, i was late in maturing.Then,having reached the predicted time,it came like a storm followed by surges,unforeseen phenomenons,and some odd abeyance;a visitor got out of darkness and put me on temptations.I found myself questioning if i was closer to God,or i fell in disgrace of invisible,dangerous and underground forces.The obsession is not an easy experience,followed by a variety of unpredictable forces and deviations.
There is a different destiny for everyone to wait for the right time and begin unrolling them,by discovering plenty of attributes to make each of us unique.
What appears to be outstanding in the dawn of your initial steps,is the ability to recognize first signs marked in your birth card and to follow them,because your future depends on observing and interpretation of the foretoken.I was lucky to catch my vision and had courage to wait for its unrolling along with all the consequences and transformations on my way.One day as i mastered it and pulled myself out of the swirl,i could look on myself like a new born being.It is really about new birth,as Jesus Christ happened to emerge among living world again after his death.Jesus' personal story and the wreath of all events to belong to the history now,stayed a puzzle for us.....we can believe or being suspicious about many things;but who would believe in my complete confession after i shed a bit of light into my personal experience?There are some TRUTHS to stay unknown and invisible for the rest of the world.

I can't get away from an impression that a 'secret' had to be told,if not of Jesus Christ's then someone else's....there must be one greatest in any event!My human sense,having been tempted by the very beginning with one's mischievousness to look for power and dominance,casted an anchor at the presence with something wonderful,unusual and strange....i cannot stand poor and naked reality......I am eternal traveler to wander between darkness and lightness,looking for a lost path and finding a new one,again and again.The truth once given to us,was taken and left to rest in some inapproachable place;what we have now are DREAMS...in our dreams we go after lost royal buildings and high bastions to leap over into the garden of paradise,freed from every hurt and evil....
We need strangeness and miracles,unnamed sources,mystical fountains,lost manuscripts,forgotten words,dried up rivers,perished civilizations,we need to dig deep into earth looking for ancient bones of extinct animals,or to study the archetypal manuscripts to get into knowledge of our origin;we seek lost tracks and watch remote stars and constellations in effort to reach new civilizations.

Simply,our own story would be so miserable and bared without such a stunning flavor of unknown and mystic.

I celebrate unknown forces coming into my life and make some exceptional events and  transformations.I am grateful for mercy to come down on me and present me with beautiful gift.My secret lies in power to win old age and stay young forever;there is a mystery around it,and as i said i love them and regard to be necessary in my life.Every obscure detail from the past keeps some secret and important mystical revelation.It seeks a way to seduce and cheat us with sparkling background and illusion of a rainbow,that seems so easy approachable and in our reach.
Anyway, if you cheat on me,let it be a beautiful delusion.


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Red Dragon
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Dragon

A dragon is a legendary creature, typically with serpentine or reptilian traits, that feature in the myths of many cultures. There are two distinct cultural traditions of dragons: the European dragon, derived from European folk traditions and ultimately related to Greek and Middle Eastern mythologies, and the Chinese dragon, with counterparts in Japan, Korea and other East Asian countries.


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Ursula Kroeber Le Guin,( born October 21, 1929) is an American author. She has written novels, poetry, children's books, essays, and short stories, notably in fantasy and science fiction. First published in the 1960s, her works explore Taoist, anarchist, ethnographic, feminist, queer theory, psychological and sociological themes.


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