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Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Vanity-The Mystery of Sin

"We have comraded long together, and it has been pleasant - pleasant for both; but I must go now, and we shall not see each other any more."
"In this life, Satan, but in another? We shall meet in another, surely?"
Then, all tranquilly and soberly, he made the strange answer, "There is no other."
The Mysterious Stranger
Mark Twain

Have you ever wondered why we always imagine things to happen the way we want and expect,by constantly overlooking,that it is a whole circle we were put in with all risings and falls,whirls and flows,thunders and silence,with tweets and cries,yearning and suffering,love and hate,beauty and horrors,heaven and hell...we must adjust ourselves to different way of seeing things.
I know,at least once in your life you hoped for a prince or princess to come,a perfect beauty and personality, and then there walks in your life someone to pale in comparison to a fairy-tale character.The simplicity of life is knowing that the perfection is an overall view you have about yourself along with whole creation.The way i fight to overcome my own suspicions,fears,vices and lures,is strength i found in myself,faith that my endeavors will surpass all the sins and negativity,and let light unclear the mist and obscurity i was wrapped with.

I can't be sure if the presence of my friend will resolve mystery of the sin,but i know i feel myself safer and privileged while being accompanied by him.

-Where do we need to look for the source of our own vanity?
Is it heaven,mountain,cloud,or some particular thing we inherited...? or something else..?

Allegory of the Vanity of Earthly Things

-You just started running away from yourself,and within it lies first answer need to take responsibility, not to blame someone or something is always another being and thing..Look into yourself dear girl!

-Oh,it comes like first terrace..i myself in it,caught by own haughty proud..

-An answer to all doubts ...whatever you do or receive,it is your deeds and decide whether to travel by a boat or luxurious ship,loaded with your own perspectives and hopes...sometimes it is a float you can set seal on and be happier.
Outer beauty is just a decoration,and true happiness comes from inside ..

-I still blame demon for my past misses.....

-Satan is only a reflection...all the negativity you hold in yourself,having amassed in your organism, brought him to you,and he occupied your body.He comes from another space and time,and whoever breaks the border between different realms,influences another's life.You can wonder now if you were the one to go behind our reality,or it was an invisible visitor in search for another's love and happiness.In the end Satan finds the weakness anyway...

-It is white angels i see..beautiful and illuminating,to fly toward us...(this time it is my vision),and i am free to share it with said to me that no one should be ashamed of own visions and dreams.It happened that one of them was abducted,and is a yearning angel now,to have lost the light and went into the underworld;from there he strives for easiness of human life,because there is not memory of previous luminosity
There are many to steal our happiness,love and beautiful memories;buried deeply underground,hidden from the light and real beauty,they try to live another's life....your weakness draws their attention ...Possession is the only way they have....

-From my experience,for i was possessed during a period of my life,i can confirm that it is so powerful to destroy someone's happiness.Bewitched and lost for the reality,i was wandering around aimlessly in a misty atmosphere,and the only track i had was a screamer to unveil some of mystery....
In my imagination i followed Codex Gigas ...a creature with little horns..

-Expectation is delusive....just live without any prejudices,let things happen,and go to meet them...don't bother yourself with suspicions or difficulty of your venture,feel it like a new journey,a nice holiday.
One should never be caught in a dominant shape of life....but it is easier for most people not to think too much.

-So i should be quiet and not afraid of demon..

-Don't show fear ...courage dispels all the negativity and changes one's life

-It is hard to confess,but it seems to me that i was the only one to call on him...i was striving for something greater beyond my reach,wanted to change the world,and the strength of my will invoked an invisible creature,or perhaps just energy.....power of mind is unmeasurable ..maybe i was inpatient,needed to wait some things to happen,and so i was punished.It brought me back to my youngest years when i was full of arrogance,but then again i can't blame myself too is Youth...plenty of zest but low wisdom

The fall of the Rebel Angels

-It is certainly that everyone is prone to glorify himself more than he deserves ..there is much greater lesson to learn,about having respect for every being regardless of their differences,being good or bad,successful or poor..regardless of which part of the world he comes from.Strange though it may seem,don't judge yourself too strong;there are inevitable forces to follow you.If you presume that,then your life could be truest one and the only you have....going after greatest challenges is changing own destiny and interpretation of divine projection!
you was brave as everyone who follow their dreams and aspirations..

-Even Jesus Christ,was doomed..!The son of God was not able to avoid cruel fate.!

-He escaped Devil,but there were people all the same.... it was a man to stop transcending humanity ..Blame people!After all,we have legacy,his teaching and promise,that there will be a day when all people's dreams come is great hope and inspiration and we all need them most!

I liked these words of my friend.
.-Hopes and inspirations!They gave the birth to everything!
Once there was a small hope to burst and turn itself into majestic universe!
Give me hope,and i shall love myself all day and all through the night
Give me hope,and i shall dive in the restlessness of the morning
Give me hope,and i shall find you in my dreams again!
Give me hope,and i shall bring our love to life!

We are all relics...we recycle ourselves together with space..there is nothing in the cosmos that is not being renewed!Our souls dwell together with dust of gold,and lose themselves in chasing of scrolling dreams beyond the sight;they feel your beats and meet your desires.So let yourself live in fantasy and alive hope ..and you know, looking for happiness begins among dreams and reality!Choose to be the one amid the stars,surrounded with glorious and sparkling spectrum of uncovered realms.There is no beauty in ordinary things....unless you change the way you look at them.

As i began my story,i intended to tell another one.. ...
-You can't release yourself from thinking  that everything happens the way you imagine....pure Vanity!Bow before the grace of universe is not only about choice but also about being have chosen for something..and be happy!

Allegory of the Vanity
of Earthly Things
Unknown French Master

The Fall of the Rebel Angels
by Luca Giordano

Luca Giordano
Luca Giordano (18 October 1634 – 3 January 1705) was an Italian late Baroque painter and printmaker in etching. Fluent and decorative, he worked successfully in Naples and Rome, Florence and Venice, before spending a decade in Spain.


Satan (Hebrew: הַשָּׂטָן ha-Satan), "the opposer",[1] is the title of various entities, both human and divine, who challenge the faith of humans in the Hebrew Bible.[2] In Christianity the title became a personal name, and "Satan" changed from an accuser appointed by God to test men's faith to the chief of the rebellious fallen angels ("the devil" in Christianity, "Shaitan" in Arabic, the term used by Arab Christians and Muslims).[3] In Islam, a shayṭān is any evil creature, whether human, animal or spirit. With the definite article, the Shayṭān is Iblis, the Devil./wikipedia


Traditionally, Lucifer ( /ˈluːsɪfər/ or /ljuːsɪfər/) is a name that in English generally refers to the Devil or Satan, especially in reference to his status as a fallen angel.
In Latin, from which the English word is derived, Lucifer (as a noun) means "light-bearer" (from the words lucem ferre). It was the name given to the Morning Star, i.e. the planet Venus when seen at dawn.

Vatican Archive

The Catechism of the Catholic Church states that the Church regards the Devil as being created as a good angel by God, and by his and his fellow fallen angels choice fell out of God's grace.

Sin is present in human history; any attempt to ignore it or to give this dark reality other names would be futile. To try to understand what sin is, one must first recognize the profound relation of man to God, for only in this relationship is the evil of sin unmasked in its true identity as humanity's rejection of God and opposition to him, even as it continues to weigh heavy on human life and history.

 excessive pride in or admiration of one’s own appearance or achievements:
 it flattered his vanity to think I was in love with him
Origin:Middle English: from Old French vanite, from Latin vanitas, from vanus 'empty' (see vain)

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Shining Beauty/PartII


-What the fantasy of darkness gives me?Night's silence to replace butterfly's dancing and thrilling rendezvous in the air,tender breeze to command early Morning's hours,or sweetness of twilight's expectation when purple horizon follows the blueness of the sky.

-It is dream....night is gift for dreaming souls!Darkness is a loving companion to everyone who failed to accomplish previous dreams.Such a person doesn't live full life in earthly reality,it is a walk between sparkles of memory and trembling happiness.
I know you burn with desire to confirm my words.You look most beautiful being shined by Moonlight as your face radiates unearthly.It is unreal beauty,bathed in starry glittering and remote mystery of night sky,showing itself during demon's hours and meetings with all the rest of night's travelers,who are beyond the human realm and understanding.You are gifted my dear with priceless shining beauty ...

Franz Xaver Winterhalter Portrait of Madame Barbe de Rimsky-Korsakov
Portrait of Madame Barbe de Rimsky-Korsakov

Having an amazing instinct,i knew a price for such blessing...i can't feel happiness in this world ....when you acquire all the brilliance and grace,then a place stays empty for some achievements.There must be something i lose anyway.
To think of the other side,as any one of you does....yes, there is always another side..
In one moment you are the King,then in another one,you are slave and pitiful...and the balance is not real,for it holds itself only in your mind.Thence,try to live your Queen's days in every moment of your life,and keep yourself proud and loved,being aware that truest power of beauty lies in you.;hold strong to your belief and make everyone see what you wish!

-A child of night!-that is how my friend called me-... child with unearthly strengths,you don't need to.look for witches,demons and miracles,they find you anyway.

-I was born during the day 12 p.m/Noon/

-It doesn't matter,you forgot you came from another world;born in great passion,you lose some chapters of life...
My mindful friend wanted to satisfied my curiosity.

-Moon gives you moving above the horizon ,its golden light reminds us of more mysteries joined together in the shadows of night,to make fantastic combination and enlighten us from inside!

- BEAUTY is not so simple as we is more about our beliefs;green grass or red rose look so nice,or we got used to their appearance.Persuade everyone that your beauty is just perfect in the way you feel it!

-You see how nature took care about everyone's beauty!There is beauty for each of us,just find right paints...and measure.Ever since a tiny atom got its code,everything depends on true proportion...too much violet or red might be make you lose some of your beauty..

The whole nature and space are our source,a richness of colors and hues but one way to have them properly..FEEL girl,feel...

It is not hazard that we got senses ,,...sight,hearing,smell,taste......The more you feel and tune yourself into the beauty of surrounding,the more beautiful you become!

-What do i need to lend from heaven?

-Space,endlessness of blue to harmonize your is for good MOOD!You can't shine while being cheerless!


-It is deepness...musing over sublimity of unexplored and untouched realms,to dwell beyond the surface, ennobles you and reflects its magnificence,and you look like a Queen!
Princess Charlotte of Belgium
Princess Charlotte of Belgium  

Let your beauty grow....
look for mysteries..

For every ingredient of my beauty i can borrow something from Universe!

-It makes you cheerful and amusing,river's restless spirit and joyful flow reminds you of a smile,lost and forgotten....

Go after the mystery and contemplation...a bit of stunning look doesn't hurt..


Portrait of madame Barbe de
Franz Xaver Winterhalter

Princess Charlotte of Belgium
Franz Xaver Winterhalter

Franz Xaver Winterhalter

twilight colors

12 hour clock

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Shining Beauty

If the genius of invention were to reveal to-morrow the secret of
immortality, of eternal beauty and youth, for which all humanity is aching,
the same inexorable agents which prevent a mass from changing suddenly its
velocity would likewise resist the force of the new knowledge until time
gradually modifies human thought
Nikola Tesla

We usually ponder over the mystery of our origin or how to unveil the secret of eternal youth,but it appeared to me an attractive hunting for the source of beauty.I know it is one of hardest mystery to unveil,and i don't think i can go through it,unless you count a bit of inspiration and possible beautiful reading.
First, there is a dilemma about the meaning of beauty:is it outer appearance to catch someone's attention,or it is more inner glamour to seduce people around?
To me,it is 'strangeness' of my being to puzzle most,followed by earliest feeling i had about myself.So,it is not weird that i look into the space for answers,along with my intuition and imagination to drive me...
Of course my magical friend was with me...

Since i miss warm and sunny days,my first thought went to Sun's glory.I love being shined inside and outside...everyone and everything look more beautiful while being lightened.

-Sun is so beautiful and majestic,and main reason we are not allowed to look into it!-i let some mystery flow around...

-Being human is not easy task,you need to overcome personal vanity and confess that there are more beautiful things around,than you are.Although,making comparison between Sun and human is not serious and adequate...unless you take into consideration a drawing, made by a child's hand to give it a smile and eyes..A man is so gifted creature the move of own hand he is able to change world!

Winterhalter Elisabeth 2
Empress Elisabeth of Austria

Being a little girl now,(i allow myself from time to time to bring myself back into the past)i may boast myself a little-What amazing feeling being more powerful than Sun!

-Calm down dear girl,it is only in your imagination....anyway,greatest gift for you!Sun is the beauty by its creation..there was a time when all furious electrons,protons ,neutrons and many mystic more, we still don't know all about them,could not stand anymore such great expectation about the change to come,and blew themselves to shine most stunning than a thing ever did!

-If you please ....there was one such great flame..the point when Universe was born!

-Oh my dear,you are so inpatient!I said beauty ...never seen by a human eye ..unless you think humans existed before the Creation!That would presume a man so clever,so wise,and able to present the greatest gifts.i doubt is weak and jealous,he works mostly for create something new and different,well it is predicted for exceptional minds ..and there is not so many a genius on Earth.
I know,a curious spirit dreams about changing the order ..

-What do i receive from the Sun to give such meaning to my beauty?

-Warmth and glow!Isn't it what a nice girl desires most!You all(together with my girlfriends) long for more shining to show off yourselves!Shining is inevitable ingredient of BEAUTY!,,,the warmth you get from the Sun make you thankful.

-There is a BOOK in my vision,i see it so clear.. a golden sheen;i can only imagine what its content is,but from another experience i am sure about their pages...

I hoped i could see into it..-May i take a look into the book?

-I would so gladly let you a preview into the book...visit me in my dreams

-That is amazing...whenever i want to understand something beyond my reach i need to look into another's dream..

-That is the way living world learned about how to live....when you are not sure about yourself, just lend the knowledge from someone else.
Dreams never lie,never cheat...that is why i am free to share it with so many of you who read this...i am not ashamed...a genius has often come to an invention,solution for a problem,or main idea for writing a novel in his vision and dreams.

It was not ordinary book like we have now..and it is crucial to know how to open it!
...if you turn wrong page you could have lost yourself forever.Even she tells me that there was many a man who made mistakes and never found their way anymore;it is memory built in us,and the more you try to escape past,the more you wander!No one should run from oneself...the future is not changed by force,it can only be when time allows and a thing matures....everyone and everything have right time to show themselves..

-I made few mistakes in the past...

-You was very inpatient to make some things happen,and strong energy brought all troubles back to you;anyway,there is something that comes regardless of making mistakes or not,and only when it is about a progressive mind.
i was more curious about the book ...
-What if one turns wrong page while being in a rush?

-As i said,one gets lost and wander,and possibly come into another world..and again being 'strange' becomes lost anyway.

I knew it was an answer for me.
-So,i might be wandering all the time,and never to find answer in this world.Is it the only way to find out the truth,having the book and my page to read ?

-It is very clever... you feel it was a page for you,as there is another one written for everyone. .

-Let's play...S...(first letter of my name)
or play it with first one in English alphabet  G Glory,Gathering,Glow,Grid,Genius,Generous....
Amazing!I was very happy with such ingenious idea!Why not,it follows me anyway!You see,my beauty is more about shining and glowing!Silence is something i need most!peace of my mind....
Let's make it with M
M  Mystery,Might,Model,Miracle,Mind...
it is not accidental i took letter M,for it has symbolical meaning in my life.

We returned to Universe's interpretation
Since ancient times people looked into the glimmering stars to connect themselves with mysterious symbols of  the universe.

-It was instinct to guard first men,not the knowledge,but they were not prevented from seeing things...intuition and instinct are inborn in Humans.They instinctively knew that cosmos was what all future generations would strive for to find answers.Destiny is reflection on the silence and answering the mystical calls of the Universe.In fact,we share its ingredients and  features..electrons,protons,hydrogen,helium,oxygen, me,it is one of most blissful moments i have,to bring me to eternity.

-It is demanding to response to the stillness....such a contemplation brings us to higher form of life to write so knowingly and elusively.

-There will be time for someone to find the book and read it again;and perhaps,such a man will be more careful and never let himself lose it ..
Somehow i felt my friend hided something from unpleasant thing to make me fear...that is a moment to stay speechless ..

-Yes, there is a chapter for you-this time it is tales we tell each other,and hope for another cosmic ray to come and bring joy,such as you had once..
Words are written to get interpreted and each one of them needs to be properly understood...all you hold in yourself is but an ingredient of cosmic is your BEAUTY...

Empress Elisabeth of Austria
in Courtly Gala Dress with
Diamond Stars
Franz Xaver Winterhalter
Franz Xaver Winterhalter

lntuition from Instinct

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Mystery of the Universe

"I come from a very wiry and long-lived race. Some of my ancestors have been
centenarians, and one of them lived 129 years. I am determined to keep up
the record and please myself with prospects of great promise. Then again,
nature has given me a vivid imagination..."
 Nikola Tesla          

By descending into the underworld,it was inevitable to think of suffering and pain.Earth is not a simple stone, thrown and whirled by someone's is laws of physics and mathematics to define earth 's  formation,motion,speed of its rotation,shape and size.I feel it like a path you walk on,by trying to keep balance all the time.Many people are not aware of this harmony was all counted and measured properly!
There is not any gift in the whole Universe to have not passed through the circle of pains and horrors.First birthday of the creation was followed by endless composition of mixed cries and cramps ... wandering new worlds.The truest vision we have is our intuition,and some scientific knowledge to enrich our imagination.You might be surprised by what i am telling ,but in the depth of my mind,it is intuition,imagination and inborn knowledge to connect me to first visions and recognizable truths.

Balance is nothing more than having two opposite sides:good and bad,dark and light,deep and shallow,and if you think better of it,you see that it appears to be night and day,fire and cold,evil and goodness,beauty and ugliness....and so on.Oh,i almost forget the main and white or black and white.Then you learn during lifetime how to conciliate your unquiet spirit and resist greed and arrogance.Following such presumptions,i come to condition of my body and and illness,consciousness and subconsciousness..
The latter leads me to spiritual forces i obey.There was historical question about what is stronger:corporal or spiritual.
Another reason i believed in the spirit is energy of my mind,waves to spread across the space.What makes me being alive is hues of my brain's activity......i can think,feel,judge,make conclusions,feel joy or sorrow,i can laugh,love....
And all because there was someone or something to inject 'spirit' into my being,and i feel more than i see,i am sure that such a hidden knowledge comes from a very powerful force to spread its influence and enter my subconscious mind.That is how you become confused about things you know more of,without perception;it tells you more than a rough reality.


That inner legacy reaches the very beginning of the Universe,and has unique 'CODE'.Yes,we are coded beings,and the only way to escape that,is our talent.
Since i was a child i looked for such personal mark,and having courage and strong will i found my talent: to ennoble myself and win old age.I don't know whether we can beat death,but it is sure we can win our lives....we can search,we can explore,we can let ourselves being brave and go after our inspirations.
Talent is going beyond naked life,it is going into another dimension of space and time;it is finding yourself among starry dust,between wandering stones and black holes,it is meditating along with the is not visible that you go for,it is a call of pristine glow to have scattered once and spread everywhere......therefore i feel i can live alone somewhere in the space.
People who live ordinary lives will not feel such suffering as a man of spirit.....they are in advantage here..but on the other side,it is great privilege being gifted ...intellect and mind's treasure,it is all about beauty you radiate around.
It is only the beauty to shine.....ever since the first flame illuminated the darkness around...
One must never lose light!
No one could stand being in darkness forever..

There was time to involve my friend(i have not forgotten him) in a little scientific talk
-We were taught that there was Big Bang about 13,7 billions years ago to start forming the  Universe.Singularity,that is how it was named,had infinite density and temperature,and infinite space-time curvature..
Isn't it a sparkle to light up the universe?

-It is said that the singularity in black hole collects all the light around..of course, all electrons,protons,neutrons...nothing is able to escape its gravitation,either light,from the point called event horizon.You can imagine it like the womb of universe,perhaps infinite number of new Universes...mystery is unexplained and understandable power with taste of magic...It is darkness to hide magical formula....a human being is far from its residence,but i hope not from final knowledge ...give a man LIGHT!

-When i think of the origin i see the light;particles of light gave the birth to everything.It is the greatest secret and knowledge that scientists and alchemists look for centuries!The origin of the space is light!LIGHT gave the meaning to everything,and colors define your personality

Somehow i first think of green...grass and plants all around!
Could you imagine red or purple grass?

-You make me some fun dear girl,as i think of your question....usually people don't ponder too much over many things and take them for granted!Grass is green and that is over!Everyone knows about school teaching about photosynthesis,and plants to use Sun's light to produce food,but still there are much more mysteries about it...i believe there is more perfection out there than a human might imagine;in fact it is a perfect sphere.....a grandiose lightning SPHERE that we are put in,with everything else!

     “A single ray of light from a distant star falling upon the eye of a tyrant in bygone times,may have altered the course of his life, may have changed the destiny of nations,may have transformed the surface of the globe, so intricate,so inconceivably complex are the processes of nature.” Nikola Tesla

-You said 'lightning',but it is dark in the space.....and cold...

-I think of 'living worlds',about energy to create live beings,such as us,or any other live form everywhere.But then again,everything seems perfect in the way it is..i love green grass and forests...too much strong colors might kill someone.....a red forest could be hard to stand!

-No,i think differently...i believe,and it comes from my feeling,i feel things more than i know,grass was polite and kind ...!Pompous red and king's purple would be great challenge for an ordinary human eye is by nature a very selfish creature and thinks that all creation was made to serve him.....a  man in the center of the universe and everything moves around him..
Find me one man who doesn't think so!
I must confess i am not too far from this saying..  .and i don't confirm that so readily.Someone or something took great risk when decided to bring a man to life and let him adjust everything to his disposition.

Green brings peace and harmony,something that a human being needs most.
I instinctively raised my eyes to the heaven and expansive divine blue..-  Of course,wisdom needs the most space for itself and humans.

-Excellent idea,and very true!-shouted my exalted friend.Wisdom always requested most by coming from the high realms.The nobility and knowledge are hidden beyond horizon.By looking for answers,you look into the sky,musing over mysterious worlds,new planets,stars and lots of unexplained creations.
In the evening,when your mind and soul rest,it puts down a dark cover....light is removed,for it is vivid and very active while brain's waves stay in silence.

-It is not surprising that light is speediest...the main activity happens during the day...and at night it would disrupt your rest..your organism slows down and recover itself.
So we solved the mystery of the heaven!


Ingredients for Life

This artist's conception symbolically represents complex organic molecules, known as polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons, seen in the early universe. These large molecules, comprised of carbon and hydrogen, are among the building blocks of life. NASA's Spitzer Space Telescope is the first telescope to see polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons so early--10 billion years further back in time than seen previously.
Image Credit: NASA/JPL-Caltech/T. Pyle (SSC)

Credit: NASA, ESA, and the Hubble Heritage Team 

A delicate sphere of gas, photographed by NASA's Hubble Space Telescope, floats serenely in the depths of space. The pristine shell, or bubble, is the result of gas that is being shocked by the expanding blast wave from a supernova. Called SNR 0509-67.5 (or SNR 0509 for short), the bubble is the visible remnant of a powerful stellar explosion in the Large Magellanic Cloud (LMC), a small galaxy about 160,000 light-years from Earth

Cosmology    UCLA-Division of Astronomy and Astrophysics

What is the currently most accepted model for the Universe?
The current best fit model is a flat ΛCDM Big Bang model where the expansion of the Universe is accelerating, and the age of the Universe is 13.7 billion years.

Mass–energy equivalence

E = mc2
In physics, mass–energy equivalence is the concept that the mass of a body is a measure of its energy content. In this concept, mass is a property of all energy, and energy is a property of all mass, and the two properties are connected by a constant

I believe in intuition and inspiration. Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited, whereas imagination embraces the entire world, stimulating progress, giving birth to evolution. It is, strictly speaking, a real factor in scientific research.
Albert Einstein