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Friday, December 30, 2011

The Little Beauty in the Splendour of a World

While still being in the obscureness of a world to have begun its forming,i thought it would be an exceptional experience,whatever it to be,for i am a brave girl, to come down into underground world and look closely at the setting of a complete unknown variety.
My own visions were so poor,but that is why i had my Wizard to take me where no one to walk on the earth,ever set foot on.I was very privileged and proud.

- I know that you have special interest and extraordinary curiosity to go there,so i give you a chance,just once in your life to learn more about your destiny.-cautious words from my friend.
That is when i thought about greatest challenges in life given to us on special occasions.Time is an inscrutable and independent runner,and magic of such a moment knocks on the door of  your life as it pleases,you are there to catch it or not,and then,all the epilogue relies on you;it is like receiving an expensive present,a crystal vase you can keep whole life or smash just after few days....At least a lesson i learned,that such a surprise comes without warning,like a foggy shroud to embrace you...that is how an obsession begins.

Allegory of Painting

Descending into the earthly hallways was not easy task even for my wizard,so he needed to ask for help.I know you are impatient to hear which of all creatures gave a hand and took us bellow the surface.It was a rat!Of course,it is nothing weird since rat lives in dark gates and has been accommodated to a subterranean ambient.Being caught in the blackness forever,there must have been something more of mystery,and i couldn't help myself but ask my friend about its transformation.

-A mouse is by nature a very curious animal,and such a feature defined its fate.He took a journey one day and run into the gates where dead soul dwell,and eagerly jerked his nose into hidden knowledge,while trying to unlock a sealed shrine to steal their secrets.He was caught,but some of that occult treasury he thrived to save till present days.

-Was it a reason to stay uncolored?-once again i got a chance to show off.

And an answer from my friend thereby came more like a confirmation-He was punished to stay gray forever.

I didn't forget our 'colored' friends', but they already belonged to other existence and it might put their lives at greater risk.

-If you get into unknown surrounding,just let yourself be led is where having the sense of sight is no necessary

  -The truth is never given to someone in the way he is always another one and different approach.That is where most people mistake.They are so spoiled and expect everything to be the way they want,but it is mainly opposite to the expectations.

 -I was wrong too-i imagined a devil-like creature to meet
...nothing similar..and greatest surprise was yet to come..stay patient....

I listened to my friend, and closed my eyes ..

Wizard opened a ruby door and we entered the great crystal cave with silver-like candelabrums,balls of noble rhodium and citrine to hang from the ceiling,and i knew immediately that all the unsightly creatures were forbidden to get in.
The squares on the walls and their glowing,were pure indication of the material used for the was diamond.Crystal hall and all the flashing were most beautiful setting for an earthly eye to see.There was a big table of platinum,set with tin plates and spoons;a huge armchair in transparent dancing cinnabar,and a quite number of marvelous decorations on the wall,made of alexandrite and translucent natrolite.
The Grotto Grande

-You just entered a world to have been beyond human sight,but i don't fear for you since you already broke some limits between the worlds..
In the wink of an eye i remembered my 'white' meditation...heritage of a previous world

 -Isn't it we have one world?-in fact what i said was meaningless,i already knew more than two ..

 -No one lives just in one world;there are different realms.

 Is there anyone to live here?-i  said loud,although i had already portended an answer.

 -Of course,there are the beings to reside here,but they are not visible for you..since they have wings and astonishing beauty,they might represent a risky venture for a human eye.Humans are still accommodated to old fashioned habits,and their souls are loaded with all the vices to prevent them from meeting such a purity of innocence.The only period in life when we are allowed to peer into all the splendour of happiness,is childhood.And just like our little friend,humans hold some of that fortune for their lifetime....however not many..
 A man also can't stand greater truths but ones he is able to apprehend now.

-Does it mean they are perfect? I knew there was another secret

 -These beings were adored with wonderful talent and power,but their reward destroyed them.One of them felt envy,and since then they lost visible worlds,remaining caught between underground and earthly world...even Heaven is unapproachable for them..

 -Oh, how sad is it!

 And my wizard felt where my thoughts go..

Once there lived a beautiful little girl,all enchanting with 'sparkling body' and smaragdine eyes,so curious and naughty,that even most powerful being was not able to keep an eye on her....she found a way to escape..
So,little girl came onto the surface,saw the light of day and soon forgot previous life..Light erases all the is stronger than darkness...that is why we celebrate lights nowadays..
Light symbolizes healing and prosperity,it fights with the ominous creatures,it is perfection,happiness and beauty... And having come from crystal world it saved its transparency..only golden particles made it look like light gold yellow.

At least i was content knowing that i came from a beautiful wold and beings...i was puffed up..
All the time i lived in fear that it was an ugly horn-creature to influence my life and hold me back from achieving all my dreams.And my friend's thought crossed my mind again....truth is usually quite opposite and surprising,it is only us humans who are so shallow..

 -Our little "Beauty" was not able to live an ordinary life,and that is why she believed being punished some way it is true.
One cannot live both worlds,having two lives must choose where to live,with whom,and where to go,,
It is the same with our loves,you can presently have only one love,to love only one being..all the other options are not a true love..
On our return home,i noticed a little noctilucine creature to fly.
My omniscient friend knew another answer to satisfy my passion of mystery
-Our tiny and flying friend was so enamored of his female,that he went down to search for her,and soon it came out on the daily light again,it never got rid of such a delusion of a murky world......he kept glimmering forever to find its way.In present days we know it by the name firefly and this breed still uses such a glowing body to attract mates.

So it is last mystery we unveil today....

Allegory of Painting
by Francois Boucher 1765
National Gallery of Art,Washington

The Grotto Grande
by Bernando Buontalenti
Boboli Gardens, Florence

                                                    HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Warmest thoughts and best wishes for a wonderful Holiday and a Happy New Year. May peace, love and prosperity follow you always!
Another thought to follow you through New Year:Believe in yourself,believe in miracles,and keep in your mind all the time that it is great work,persistence and love to endure and reward you.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

A Christmas Story-Coloring the World

While you may think of happiness as something known,i shall give you another approach,if you only let me lead you into the whirl of intuition and imagination.
My happiness as being unseen before,found me in an obscurity of ignorance to light my face and send some of opulent knowledge,kept in the cradle of the first world

Just to remind you of the journey with my wizard into deadness of an unknown world which i was able to see thanks to magic of my friend...
How nice is it having friends!-i whispered,more to myself..

What's done,is done!I and wizard made few of sad creatures happier by coloring and giving them a breath of new life...did i do good thing?As soon as i put a beautiful robe on cat,dog and dragon,i made a difference between them and the rest of misty world.

-Wasn't it we conceived a bud of envy by our deeds?-i asked my friend
 So many times we wondered ourselves about the source of evil among us..

-I believe it is wrong thinking-he said-these creatures have already lived in hate and envy,it was not sourced  from anybody or anything around.. ...and it was worse than we feel about each other,it came about by their unsightly appearance.Facing beauty is blessing for the soul,not a doom.

Feeding the Rabbits

-When you say that,everything seems so simple and easy to me...but i still have a sense of guilt

-There was nothing you could do to make them feel better anyway....only with such a kindness,you took some of them out of useless suffering...there are useful and redundant pains and miseries...

-I couldn't help myself but smile...
So,a difference was made,and we walked on with our new friends;it is supposed that when you do something for someone,he becomes your friend,isn't?And i found a comfortable seat on the back of Dragon.

I was so eager to ask Wizard about Sun,but i waited for right moment...there was no line between day and night,the all around us was dimly and i wished for warm Sun's rays...

My friend who sees through my thoughts and perceive more than a mere man can ,waved his hand and called on God to let shining...A beautiful Sun's ball appeared from the east,and greeted us in wonder....
Suddenly some places in our vicinity became scorched,they simply couldn't stand such warmth to touch them at once.

-Now you know the price of Sun's blessing.....for that,there had to expire many,known and unknown,or never seen ever....
Every great attainment takes some sacrifices from reach something big and unique,there must be some things to disappear and some people's beliefs to go.....
Sun is grandest happiness of our earthly world.and gift to give a birth to everything ...While letting a remote star to come into our vicinity,and bringing her with own hands,she became warm and changed her color into GOLD....that is how you see Sun now.

-Of course that i was delighted after hearing such an amazing explanation of my Wizard.
-It appears that we can change the world...and our destinies...i think it just happens...

-Once again you approved how clever and intuitive you are-said Wizard.The all is in God's power and our inspiration;move a little stone and you will discover another one;if you are brave and ingenious ,you will make some good for you and add more beauty in your life.

As soon as Sun scattered its glorious sparkles around,we noticed that many of creatures,uncolored ones,run away to hide somewhere.I was so sorry and impetuously rushed out to catch up a rabbit,that was so scared.. ...i recognized him disguised in a squared and bony creature,without fur ..i lent some of magic from my friend and made him into magnificent white rabbit ...and now you know why he is so flustered and run away from you.While holding him in my arms,i felt a hit into my head made me rise my eye above and see another creature in fear,to jump on the branches of a tree;being a bit nervous and angry for the hurtle i received,waved my hand and wished to see him on the ground...i learned later that it lived only on the tree..
Oh my dear friends, it was my guilt to make him into animal to walk the land too..then i tried to figure out how to paint it,and seemed i was in dilemma,so it happened that many kept their gray colors,but if you look more studiously you will find ones of them in beautiful carbuncle hue.I felt great joy after i realized what i came across...It was squirrel!
That is why red color is,among other reasons,a color of joys and surprises.......if you have courage and instinct to find things,then there is a great chance to make yourself many joyful moments in life...

It is no necessary to mention that trees were naked yet;being deprived of such a wisdom of an animal to look for happiness on their own,they had to get their clothes in order to become so precious for the mankind.God appraised his creation and took a break for himself by laying at the nadir of a tree..he needed a shelter of Sun's warmth and wanted to have a he imagined leaves,that having received first warm rays,turned themselves into GREEN!

I confess that my knowledge about colors was so weak,or perhaps i neglected their importance,and promised myself to look closer what colors i pick into the least to be more careful about things around me,and about the color of my love.........

Feeding the Rabbits
"Alice in Wonderland"
Frederick Morgan

Thank you for visiting my blog and reading my stories.
Have a magical holiday season.Keep the memory of child's visions,that little world when we were truly happy...every little detail is one more sparkle in your life and one more is precious!

                                                          MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

A Christmas Story-The Frame of Beauty

-Is it an illusion?-a natural question to appear after seeing such a beauty
-Beauty is never an comes from our inner beings where strongest truths dwell.

What my Wizard taught me,was to never be modest in my quest for finding astonishing truths and not being afraid of breaking the line seemingly put before a human eye.
To get me into a wonderful setting,he even turned me into little girl i used to be.

A Girl with a Kitten

As we painted our world,by giving it most beautiful colors,i inevitably felt some sorrow for every creature being left out of enchanting paints.
But this time,it was people who were the subject of my interest;i know it is a complex theme and hardly we know a piece of the truth,so i found nice opportunity in the presence of my Wizard.
We run across a group of people who were uncolored and looked for their path with hope to get into the brightness one day.

-Does it mean that only 'colored ones' are allowed to come into the world as we know presently?

-Oh,once again you surprised me by your ingenuity!There are many creatures to still seek their way through darkness in order to emerge onto the surface.

-I am a bit sorry for them.

-You should not regret ones who left behind!There will be time for them to find their unique path ;even if they failed in endeavors,still there would be a way for them to steal some of happiness and love from us.

-How so?-in fact i portend what explanation might be..

-It happens sometimes that some of them get into our souls,and we become obsessed;as long as they dwell inside of us,it is possible to feel all our feelings,along with sorrow and pains..
....even it is possible to appear in real world.

-You say,to walk and live with us,as a real Human being?

-Yes, that is what i thought.Think of gratitude,it is like BEAUTY...
A beautiful girl held her hand mirror by looking at herself,but being heady,she let an underground female being come into possession of her beauty....

-I am confused and it is not clear to me yet..

-She was unfaithful and too arrogant for everyone and everything around..and the beings who were responsible for the painting,didn't like it and punished her;on the place she occupied,came another being and took her shape...

-Oh, it is astonishing!

-It may be cruel,but think about squirrel and rabbit you painted by picking them out of the rest of creatures to beautify them.Beauty is knowledge...she is recognizable,..

-Isn't She an Illusion?-i interrupted him

-Beauty is never an comes from our inner beings where strongest truths dwell.

-Is there any hope for the girl to recover her life?

-Everything was put into a frame,like pictures you sort out and choose best ones for the frame;and God did the same while creating his world.There are many Goddesses to still reside in the heaven,being so magnificent, that earthly beings could not stand such a beauty..

-It is so nice to know how there are many beauties waiting for happier times to live their own truths.
Did our girl lose her frame?

-It is not lost,but only engrossed by someone else's spirit.
One should always be cautious in which setting put their habits, thoughts and desires..

-What if one day our forests,rivers, flowers,....all the beauty of nature were to die..?

-A man is responsible for the whole ambient we live in.It is the frame which we are put in now,beautiful colors of nature,vivid sounds and richness of fruits..Could you imagine subtler colors for a river or ocean?There are sparkling hues of,ocean-blue..
Or just think of the river to paint her depth with dark green and turquoise.
-I ponder over the heaven and clouds,and all the mystery to happen there..Only few things are able to rival the beauty of Sunrise or Sunset..

It was inevitable for me to ask-What is the most beautiful in your eyes?Or which BEAUTY?

-It is the SOUL!Soul is most beautiful and precious,but once lost,she makes you lose everything!

I thought seriously about his words....seem so true,i had to confess to myself,and there was fear to prevent me from asking for further explanation.
But my Wizard didn't let anything pass unnoticed
-I know your 'secret' believe for yourself that you lost your 'soul';and there are reasonable reasons for your doubts and fear.I am sorry that i can't give you all answers you expect from me...
I only know that for some reason you are very special girl and live a different life.Uniqueness you are granted with and your young look make you one of most beautiful girls ever... like a Goddess.
 ....being a Beauty is great privilege

-Oh, i am honored to be treated like a Goddess!
And for all my girlfriends now,who may feel jealous now,i ask them to have understanding and let me live up to my beliefs,being risen on such a hight throne.
Wizard was obviously curious about me and continued-There might be some creatures dwelling in darkness who know the answers you long for.Being mindless and letting your soul get caught,made you dependent on someone else's will ;i am afraid you can do nothing on your own,but be peaceful and patient.
Unless you live a destiny to be unclear for us,because it belongs to another frame of reality......

A Girl with a Kitten
by Jean Baptiste Perronneau

A Girl with a Kitten  


A special thanks to my girlfriend Michelle Heath who inspired me to write this story dedicated to my friends:Michelle,Sharron,Lisa,Janette,Shanita,Lynn,Mary,Candy,Regina,Maryann,Sandra,Harinder,Sharon,Devinder,Werner........and many others


Monday, December 12, 2011

A Christmas Story-Coloring of Mythological Creatures

Being a grown up doesn't make me less eager for listening or reading a beautiful Christmas Story.As soon as Christmas comes closer i think about a story of mine...
perhaps just a remnant of my childish days to make me feel a bit lost and strange in my real age....

I asked my Wizard for help

By holding my hands,he took me to the edge of an abyss.It was a misty Morning when birds send their whispers to senseless souls..

Take a look down-he said,but be prepared for astonishing world
No need to say how curious i was...i gathered my breath and stuck out my head to have a glimpse of mystic hole...

Don't be afraid ...!-dreams come true while flying into unknown...,just step into emptiness..


Laying on the bottom or crawling around each other ,there were endless ridiculous creatures...what other name
to picture such unseen and weird animals?
I know you wonder how i could see good from such a great distance...well,it is unnatural world which sucks your senses by polluted air....a zone of dead souls...

There was a creature with the body of a lion and wings of an eagle,supposed it was a Griffin,and a Balaur -like creature with multi heads;i noticed a tiny bird with soft eyes that i learned to be a primary appearance of Bunny-bird,the soul of the Sun God-Amon Ra; there was an appealing creature with one horn,and Wizard,who knew more than real world,named it Karkadann ;then i saw an early mix of animal and human with the tail of a scorpion,which my companion called Manticore.Three head dogs and horses with wings,great lizard and dinosaur like creatures..snakes with wings,cats covered with spines,were just some of miracles i saw,and many of them were depicted and recognized in our existence.Since it was the very beginning of Creation,not each of them was colored.

By looking at such a creation,God wished one day to change the view and asked for help to make a new dweller...
-How?Wasn't it that God himself created a man..-i knew in advance who my wizard thought about

-It is one of greatest delusion ever..God is great but not everything is in his power....-he answered and my sight into ancient world continued to grow by each word he told me

Oh,it becomes more exciting,i love when old taboos get broken...-i felt a thrilling in my voice and clapped my hands.
-But it put you in a new position next to God who is Almighty...

-Don't make confusion or give undeserved attributes to me..God is a catholic eye,he is LIGHT and WISDOM..
we come after him with our little wonders to light up some missing lines..

I hardly stayed peaceful,burning from impatience to remind him of evil to be present among us.So You say light and wisdom,but what about evil ?There must be another side of reality..

-There have gone many a year since first creatures came into the world as we know it now...and there is another world which we still regard unreal,but it exists as well..  they are unsatisfied,greedy to get a shape which is lost for them ..they crave for some missing beauty,everyone loves to be beautiful,have a nice hair and eyes...

-Oh,i never thought about them in that way!Now i feel sorry for all of them...

-So envy is not so mystical as it seems..Would you like to have an enchanting dog or cat?With green or  caramel eyes...i can make such a little wonder..just look at..

It lasted just a blink of eye,while he rushed out,seized a hideous dog and brought to me...
-See,it is unsightly,has pale eyes,and is without hair...and a long tiny neck...wait for a moment-

It took not more than few seconds for magic he performed...he made it into a beautiful dog,with sweet caramel eyes and gold fur...
again i clapped my hands and jumped ..-It is wonderful you did!Thank you so much!

Now i hope you see things better,and understand such a 'poor' and neglected world more than earlier..if you knew anything at all....more for himself,he whispered.

I pursued with my curiosity...-What happened with the sky and rivers,all the nature around we enjoy ?

Great accomplishments are in God's hands...He gave colors to the sky...By watching these miserable creatures
to yearn for a bit of lightness,his eye was tearing and a teardrop fell down...from that, a RIVER was born..

How wonderful !I was makes me get a feel for river to be sensitive,a new way of looking at things and thinking....amazing!

And God's eyes are blue,that is why river became blue....

But my passion to know more didn't stop....Is it the same story with the sky?

You are very clever and intuitive.....such attributes lead you toward the greatest achievements....he smiled,and continued-There was an account of sorrow about gray expanse spreading before his eyes and wished to paint it, seemed like a matching hue for such a transparent space......
but i know that blue is symbol of WISDOM....and there was one to suggest it to him..
Of course,not everything got colors by his WILL...there were always little plays around to satisfied one's thirst for making wonders...

I opened my eyes as wide as i could,full of happiness and delight...-what spectacular choice for me to make..!
Please, let me color one of them....
-I told you never to beg for anything...You are so serene,for you are given more than many have in earthly life...
For a moment our main point of conversation and my desire were interrupted,while i asked
-What is it about me to be so special?Although in myself i hold a secret already..but as every naughty girl,i pretended i didn't know what he was thinking about..

-You know very well little foxy girl,that you have a sparkling body,it is velvety particles inside of you to give you a strange and unique look..
that is truth..i knew...the only i didn't know was ..why ?

Which creature do you want?
-I want to make one of them be GOOD!Since i love dragons and there are many talks of them being evil,i wished to change their beliefs.....
-Dragons are not evil... .and only what you can do is to beautify them..choose one of them..

-By holding my breath,i reached my hands around his shoulders and we flew.....

A dragon caught my eye by standing all alone in the obscurity ...i felt it longed for something different ..i simply knew..i wished for him be colored in antique red with green eyes and gold flame to go out of his mouth...of course red is color of fire,but i imagined something more...
Still there are many to doubt in his existence,and i needed to make him glowing in red to be so impressive being inside already!

And i made more miracles...i colored a few birds,and learned them to speak..i found a dove like creature to be wild,and keeping in my memory one to have recently landed on my terrace and go into my room,i wanted to make him tame..and painted him in noble purple being deserved by his friendly and close relation with a man.Dove communicates with underground world and is a messenger between dead and live worlds..

An imposing cat seemed perfect to make her into amethyst with dreamy bluish eyes..i didn't like her big ears and made them small...anyway,a cat more feel than see and understand..she is intuitive and very resistant to earthly strokes,she can survive and renew own life many times..

Most i could do for a snake was to free her of a shell,so that she can creep now....and being warned from my wizard to not look into her eyes,i left out coloring them....nobody looks a snake into eyes!
Unfortunately,a dreamy ball resembling our Sun to sneak up from the east,forced us to come back,by leaving this antediluvian world,while i was thinking about whether it really vanished or exists parallel with us.I didn't ask my wizard anything more,as i kept some questions and surprises for the next time we go to new journey.It is the answer on your dilemma:i shall continue my story....

A Little Notice
Just to let everyone know who is in dilemma about the way i colored a few of creatures,i didn't do that with classic paints,it was MAGIC...
And a short request:
If some of you might suggest me names for my mystical creatures,for as you noticed,not the all of them are known at present./you can ask children for help/
Thank you so much!

by Ian Hornak 1991
The National Hellenic Museum
National Hellenic Museum



Monday, December 5, 2011

Velvet Night

Open your eyes and let your fantasy lead you to magical places being impatient and eager to rediscover some mystery for you,while dreaming in belief they are the only ones to still love and long for you.;your life isn't about false promises or lost hopes and illusions to come with a song of sad vibrations;neither is faded painting of missing lives,and a kettle of crying souls to suffer their pains on Earth that you got caught in;it is about your vision,inner beauty,world you hold while dreams never ending and dreamers never lose their faith...let them walk into your life and make you happy and desired.,for every single wish has own gate and takes your permission to live on....let your life be absorbing for all the beauties that your mind conceives and soul longs for...

After the Misdeed

First key of the gate

As i and my companion were approaching the gate i tried to remember what my spiritual shepherd told me:
"There are three keys to decide about you and your destiny;First we unlock at the moment of our birth;and it is the time when we are still unaware of all the beauty of love,although she has her most magnificent moments we shall ever feel.....The time when she is purest and warmest in own appearance."

I was a little puzzled,rose my eye brow and looked at him astonished:
-What i am eager to know is love i wish to live right now,as all grown up girl....please, paint my dream....

"Never beg for anything,it will only move you away from achieving what is destined for you..
Only restive souls lose patient while listening and waiting for dreams..."

-I was waiting so long for something one receives so easy and early while being so young..-.i said eagerly again

-That is fine what you say,but you forgot of yourself and secret you unrolled ...never thought it might make someone angry?"

Of course that i knew and quelled from his answer,so i didn't mention anything about it..

"There are certain rules to be respected and never broken;i believe you crossed the border between dreams and reality,and let your dreams walk into real life ...only greatest LOVE is allowed to leap over the fence."

Oh,i am so happy i possessed it......and.jumped of happiness while saying it.

-It is truth,but you played foul again...and punishment was cruel..You got divine gift,eternal Youth which is only the adornment of a Goddess..and you know what happens soon one of them makes a God angry....she is scourged ...and that is how you lost your great love you found once...

Is there any hope for me?- i asked,by staying seemingly in peace and not finishing my question..

-I am afraid that you will never recover such a bounty of dreaminess beyond the time.....and there is no trade between dreams..they are too noble and sublime to be changed so easy..
my advice is to keep dreaming...even you feel how there is no hope anymore for you and your love,once you met a great DREAM it is expected of you to dream on...that way you redeem your past sins and renew all respect that a highest dream deserves...

Thank you-i shouted joyful and happy to have received new incentive...

-So i really helped you..i knew that you thought of letting go of all your expectations...and don't forget to listen to me carefully;there are many who miss happiness for they are not awake enough to listen roaring whispers from wishful souls to have lost their love....every one has own Knight of Heart.."

Oh,how beautiful is the sound of your words!-again i could not hide my delight...Knight of Love!Do you know how happy you made every girl now,each one in the world!
And more for myself i continued with my musing...even i don't bring back my great love,there is still hope for me to have a beautiful dream and my own Knight to think of me.....

"In my book of life there is no difference between a child and an adult;they are simple souls and being spiritual without age...
and everyone has the same smile one is jealous and envy, an earthly world you can open the gate and be presented with only one desire.. ..if it were fulfilled,the second one you must forget...since you reigned two great secrets,it became a bit complicated.."

I didn't know love might be a SECRET..-i was very surprised...all about.i knew was a wish ..

"Every great achievement consumes a secret ..and never shines without unlocking a gateway to lead to a treasure of secrets..and You, only You unlocked the two by now..more than is possible for a human being.".

Now i got insulted-If it is truth,why do exist all angels to keep and watch on people?I suppose,in order to help us when we make a mistake...

"Even the angels are not able to do all miracles that Almighty deliberately left behind...."

Sadly,i slightly bowed my head and let my eye wander around,secretly looking for my Knight....and i still have no answer and not sure about my future..though,there is a thing to annoy me and i needed to ask one question more..


Dear spiritual father,somehow i feel that regardless of a tiny hope i have about a love on my way,i believe that whole truth is not in visible world..even obscured, it might appear at once and surprise me as it did first time i got to know my great love..i still remember velvet night when we met each other;,i didn't expect anything but a simple party i was called on....just nothing!But it was most beautiful meeting of love in my life!.......Yes!There must be the moments when it is stillest around and i am free from any burden of expectations,there will be greatest surprise ..i shall live on with such a belief,i am convinced in that....
It is real truth for everyone who reads my is a MAGIC you wait for..every magic is about surprise....just refresh your memory of a moment when your heart beat strongest and whole atmosphere before will see that i speak right..
Let it be SILENCE and don't expect anything..for being GREATEST and in power to take part in one's destiny,God loves to play with you;only in anger he can deprive you of happiness..just be quiet and servile to earn mercy again.
Have you ever seen a rainbow while expecting one in the sky?

There was no answer but a brightest smile i have ever seen while he walked away from me and gave it on leaving....

My Little Notice
I wish for you a Velvet Night

"After the Misdeed"
by Jean Beraud

Blue Night
by Atelier Hofhuizen & Van Dongen


Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Whispers of Childhood


ME:Will you take me to a short journey into my childhood days?

WIZARD:Why do you want to go back?

ME:I wish i could see myself as a little girl

WIZARD:It is easy,just put your imagination in move or look at a picture of your childhood

ME:But i wish to rediscover some secrets from the time i was just a child.

WIZARD:I knew that you didn't tell me the truth

ME:Maybe i was afraid of other people's reaction

WIZARD:There is a big difference between the two worlds-Childhood and Maturity ;
to feel and experience your youngest days you need to live another time again

ME:I need it right now,for i write a story

WIZARD:I shall give you a glimpse into past times,and nothing more..perhaps you will
find a little nook for me on your keep me from being forgotten;you see,
i live in one's memory,from century to century people pass their testimonies
and keep me alive.....if there were no reminiscence i would die..

ME:It sounds like recall of a fire that people once kept burning ....

WIZARD:Only it is about LIGHT now..good memories light up the future,
but bad ones bring calamity and misery;every time a man lights up a path,
we all step into bright days;each time one starts a war it brings us back into
the is not easy to get out of the HELL..

I am sure even there was a visitor to darken and puzzle my childhood,
i would bring about but pure brightness for you and me....Thank you my dear WIZARD!

WIZARD:Good luck with your endeavors and aspirations,there is a reward for everyone who
is able to revive their youth....and that is great SECRET!should i reopen it for You,it takes from
you to make a new path for others who are brave enough just like you are,,.Will you?,,
..anyway with no special promise i shall tell you it,because i know that you already
reigned a secret ..You won old every time you make a path for another one,
you are granted with the sparkle of eternal Youth....
The more starry paths you open the greater and more beautiful your Youth....

I smiled,said nothing but was sure that my wizard knew the whole truth for me and of me...and i knew without  even saying a word to me,that there was a hidden danger to stop me from achieving all my dreams,i knew for myself which one i still longed for...

When i waked up that morning,nothing was the same as previous days;i felt like being suddenly touched by smell of some olden and rushing times,as came out from crumpled and burnt pages of a book to have stayed too long exposed to Sun's merciless rays.Particles of dust floated and soared high above my head,while walking on a unsightly path remembering me of some colored and lost time,and as every child being eager to feed own curiosity i looked to the right and left with hope to notice some recognizable objects,or signs to lead me into the course of unveiling my dreams.

As i was walking along the trail,all the colors changed their robes in a desperate call on me to replace them with new ones to refresh my memory and clarify sights around me.I recognized an aged tree of apricot to bear delicious fruits,then there was a tall and robust mulberry,a place to spend few hours in meditation,by sitting high on its hidden branches.Who doesn't like abundance of mellow purple and pink fruits?Can you imagine the simplicity of a moment,when you feel like a Queen while dangling legs in empty space bellow,to rise few meters from the ground!What would many of us give for such a pleasure and magic of the moment?
I hardly was aware how that lovely tree held me in its hug by trying to pass on me its own pains and hopes.. many times i am unconscious about another man's griefs and expectations?For the all is live in my magic land,and every thing,every creature has personal story to tell us.

Whether life still exist,or i am a slender breeze in obscurity,just a faded copy of gloriousness that i was granted with,in a time to have gone.That is which makes me doubt in reality of my life,when everything seems so dummy,with people around me seemingly walk,talk and make other gesticulations,but the pulse of life has vanished or made into something resembling a realm where the prince of darkness potters and makes his dirty mischiefs.I constantly lose myself in that labyrinth of pale perceptions and an account of intensive feelings in my first views of life around.

There was a river,and still she makes her appearance while running by my village house,only the stories are different since the time i had some lovely days in her company.When i return there and look into its surface i see how the warmth and excitement of those early moments have complete fled,while vainly longing to bring back vividness and hilarity of past enjoyment;and i know i can only revive memories starring into a framed picture to hang on my room's wall.
Oh, how passionately i wish i were again in primary layout of my picture,abandoned there and free of time's measurements and changes,inevitably followed by the flow of passing years!From my distance now,i see these visions colored in gold and silver,as reflections of vivid and colorful vibrations they were once.
I looked for more haunted places that used to catch my attention and love;one of them found its place in the hills up my village where my grandma and granddad grew vine and meadow,patterned with tress of plumes,pears and apples.In the early Spring,it found me happy with lovely wild strawberries i picked and enjoyed in their scent.And they still occupy the same stretch;i can walk among them and enjoy in scenery,but can't feel previous alluring and marry impressions,except in my memory.The trees,strawberries and meadow rest now in their tawny and blanch decor.
The scenery stood the same but I am the one to be changed because the lucidity and sensibility of child's eye has gone forever.I don't say that my childish spirit abandoned the nest without leaving its fluffs to keep tracks and enriched me in these decrepit times..
Hence i feel that the all was someone's hoax,to let we go through life toward its supposed end,to grow,but persistently losing the glow and sparkles of life's pleasure and happiness.Somehow our basic picture got spoiled,and like anyone trying to recover a masterpiece,would only find themselves to never make anything better or return its beauty and purity given by first colors,painted with the precious moves of a brush.
What grows fantastic in this story,if you happen not to conceive it,is the sense of time's illusion and fascination.;that little child with personal memories and experience seems to me like coming from primeval times,and containing all the wisdom of life.
I see that child in hold of pristine wisdom written by invisible visitors and unknown by God,while a rapacious hand of foxy Devil seized a slice to allure and deceive ones who are brave to search for sacred knowledge.I assume it comes to us in flash of light traveling a distance between remote star and find its sprout here on earth.
My musing over past times,made me lose sense of reality ....where is beginning?where is the end?Did i go into right direction?What if the very beginning of my life was my greatest achievement,being but a pure divination.That child makes me upset to suspect in my present,my judgment and reason,to wonder myself who knew more and lived real life.Me or that child?It makes me feel living an untrue life,in which we mostly become lost in reaching true love,in learning,enjoying and celebrating the life itself.Being caught in an emptiness while trying to get to the top i climb all the time,i slide further and further into the deep,stuck in the frivolity and frost on the bottom.Such a condition makes i lose my reason,doubt my mind,cognition and observation,by suspecting myself about where is the mistake;and if there was any,whether it had to imply in my life or i made a choice once.

Still there is hope for all of us to walk on the tracks of childhood's glistening paths...
What You really need to learn is simplicity of FIRST STEPS a baby learns .!Make first steps,dare to walk,and everything will come to be as it was divined and drawn by one's hand to paint your canvas of life.Start anything,no need for a bulk of designs and plans ,just let your leg make one STEP and all the rest will unroll as it was predicted.That is the wisdom which the child i used to be told me in whispers,by slowing their sounds over the years to pass by,and like music forgotten but learned once,they might be refreshed in memory to teach us again about life,unwrapping the picture of FIRST STEPS in the earliest childhood!
Remote sounds and notes,smothering WHISPERS from past times,are still able to bring back to us first and inborn KNOWLEDGE from our ancestors,left in heritage,the road of which ,we can only find in FIRST CHILD IMPRESSIONS!
That is,as i see it clear now,why i kept in my mind that child as being AGED one, in my vision!The child showed pristine WISDOM leading through unawareness and subconsciousness of a naive and genuine being to just make first steps in life,more a reflection passed on us from first beings once walked on the Earth!

my free creation


Thursday, November 24, 2011

Love has come down from Heaven

"In a ghostly hour i lost my love'
O, sweet illusion,bring me another one,
The price is small for a bit of my happiness;
I won't steal or lend,
You have my permission to make a cheat on me,
For i am but a lonely servant of yours,
Be you from heaven or the hell

In a ghostly hour i lost my love.
It doesn't matter any more to me,
As i sold my soul once ago;

And the only hope i have now,
Is that glowing span
While being in the full sense of myself,
Agreed to have a crumb of your glorious mercy!

Since my birth,love has been an inevitable companion of my every day's life while i never assented to any ordinary consumption of her.Love is too powerful and magical to be just an usual visitor of many to travel across all planetary and starring worlds out there.From the very beginning,whether there was a fireball explosion,filled by pure particles of energy,carried here and there on the pallets of the sky,by making a whirl around planetary heads and spreading their hands eagerly into space,or taking a religious approach and thinking of God's will and power to make all things happen,i strong believe in the existence of catholic love to incorporate and unite all of us and everything together.
First thought was about Love,as soon as God wished for bringing into life a picture of man and woman to live together.In addition to God's command,there is a natural aspect of human need to love and be loved;it is perpetual aspiration to make every day a holiday.Being caught in mind hemisphere,love paves its path for beauty as another aspect of magical travelers.

The Stolen Kiss

First and main recognition of love is within ourselves
I love myself
I respect myself
I know myself
Primal presumption to live a healthy life is being in love with yourself.
There might be hours to torture ourselves with hate and looking for where its source comes from;some hints of possible scenario going back to an idea of rivalry to have conceived envy and hate.If we were to follow our thoughts,sometimes spiced with jealousy and odium,it would become clear that the hell's cradle rests in our minds.There is nothing to come out of us,which has not made its way through the splice of our thoughts.
The most famous sprout coming from the darkness,is Satan.I don't know if you ever felt his presence and what your impressions would look like,but i believe,my own encounter might be a good illustration.Being obsessed,appears to be an exceptional experience,from a point of view;from the other one,it is really the "Hell".He doesn't allow to live in love,and being a great opponent of your happiness,his desire is you never meet and reunite with your lover.Once deprived of love,with mangled feelings and without home,Satan was condemned to live as vagabond for all the times.
Thereby if you are alone and no one holds your hand,,think of the past when someone earned this fatal destiny for you.As i rout over my past lives while pulling drapery to the left and right of my view,i can see,for a moment,the face of my previous life and colors to paint my being.It is black and white like dress of a sinful nun who never paid ransom for her sins.For what one could think different about something to constantly escape from their possession,unless there was a great sin to seal their fate.

Soon as self-willed Eva,made her own way in picking an apple from the tree of knowledge of good and evil,by leaving Adam in ignorance,and making an act of cheating,LOVE became an ILLUSION for ever.....only true Love survives in heaven's cradle...
True lovers are damned to long for each other forever and stand their passion drifts through endless cosmic expanse;fortunately enough,some of them might win just one day of real earthly love..and they should consider themselves happy for such a mercy...
And i know,i already lived through my blessed moment in life,had a glimpse of happiness by knowing great i can only watch its petals scattered high in the air,like a seducing and beautiful flower being deprived by cruelty of a storm of its bloom,and condemned to grieve for its beauty forever..
You can have only one GREAT LOVE in life..all the rest are illusions..more or less...
By keeping that in your mind,you agree to a handful of little lies around your love;don't ask more than it is possible and don't undervalue what is sent to you..take it like a packet,wrapped with ribbons in colors that you don't like,and imagine how yellow one shines red or purple...change the colors in your mind and take them for the many times in life we come down to such sweet illusions?-almost every day as we breathe.

                                            In a ghostly hour i lost my love'
                                        O, sweet illusion,bring me another one,
                                      The price is small for a bit of my happiness;
                                                I won't steal or lend,
                                        You have my permission to make a cheat on me,
                                          For i am but a lonely servant of yours,
                                             Be you from heaven or the hell;
                                                In a ghostly hour i lost my love.
                                            It doesn't matter any more for me,
                                                 As i sold my soul once ago;
                                                And the only hope i have now,
                                                   Is that glowing span
                                        While being in the full sense of myself,
                                     Agreed to have a crumb of your glorious mercy!  

This little verse comes not from a dreamy mind to hold his pen in a rushed time but as lone echo of past lovers,whose souls travel through the time to find a glimpse of happiness when the renewed lovers in some another age meet each other,while pieces of their love warm lost souls once again...
I am not the lonely prisoner of his will.Many a lover found themselves in a character who rests in gold pages of a book.I myself recognize beautiful Margarita and her unrestrained youth,to be my reciprocal image coming right from the famous novel by Mikhail Bulgakov.
Margarita is the minion of both God and Devil,a noble privilege,and as such not available to everyone.Only a chosen few is allowed to meet astonishing creatures from the light and darkness and meet an exceptional destiny.Sometimes it is permission to break the limits to separate reality from magic,and like a wizard to join all mystical beings in holding of SECRETS ..sometimes,they are given too much and the same taken just in a wink,for the glory has its own price..
Margarita conquers both realms-light and darkness,by her love of Master and unusual young look she kept in her older years.
Where Devil draws his breaths,there must be something "marvelous" in air .......
I listen to him as whispers...i am deprived of Love,but have power to make your dreams come true..and being without feelings my reward will be your punishment alike!

 My dear demon,i know you,i received and embraced your award,and your "revenge".

 LOVE must be fed

Love revives its strength in your inspiration.Be focused on your hobby;your love of the nature gets its satisfaction in long walks along the forests' paths..go out and find solace with the birds in flight;having a nice garden is perfect rest to cherish beautiful flowers and make short breaks in meditation;love of books is my favorite,there is no greater enjoyment but holding some yellow pages to meet my curiosity and satisfy exploring spirit;put some of your thoughts on paper or transmit it to the screen.Love your work whatever to be,and wherever you are,and in the lack of passion,get it compensated by own talent to find some little pleasures around it,employ your imagination .....

There are many patterns of loves..wrap them with the ribbon in a matching color...
sometimes you give your love away with no strong pretension .....just an easy sympathy and affection
sometimes you love another being as close soul to answer your aspirations and inner beauty
sometimes it is only a hint of possible love..
sometimes it is destiny to take you to the other side of the world and prevent from meeting your love again..
sometimes it is great LOVE to be swallowed and prevented from realization by demon's power....

My LOVE is not being from this world,it aspires for and wanders among the souls fell from the height and doomed to suffer;my love will never reach its destination where faithful hearts meet each other again;my love is an unfinished story;she is not under God's grace;my love suffers some past sins and takes many centuries to fulfill itself;my love brought in a verdict of guilty on me and damned to enchant everyone but never to belong anyone.......

"The Stolen Kiss"
by Jean-Honore Fragonard

Monday, November 14, 2011

Unwrapping my Mystic Packet

There is a sleepy and mystic land to keep memory of dreams,and an old white man to sit in the underworld room.During the time of my fantastic visit ,i tried to get some answers to my origin and knowledge to lie buried there from the primordial time.

Who are you?-i asked,as i let my thought fly.

I am an ordinary man who saves everyone's DREAMS over the centuries-said the old man

If you were an ordinary man,you would not live forever tell me the truth-i was curious..

I can not tell it a random visitor....and it is more a SECRET.

What is the secret?

You must find it by yourself-old man stayed enigmatic with his answer

May i ask someone to tell me more about it?

No,it can not be..
You need to know it by yourself,because every one of them has different parents and dreams; there might be one to originate from Cerberus,another one comes from Phoenix... you will meet Centaur,Griffin, and Cyclopes....Titans,like Rhea and Cronus and many others.And everyone responds to different sounds and pictures;once you were lost in darkness,it takes great skills to see and recognize enemies in right moment,there are plenty to hate you...for you may be have more beautiful dreams...

Whether my fancy or strong desire,yet i pictured that a DRAGON was my keeper of dreams..and more... something like my parent,my first breath..........

Red Dragon

By the grace of his Majesty,our dreams live out our memories and keep walking on ancient tracks of lost worlds.On a gracious trace i saved my loving memory of early childhood when 'everything' has begun.
In the childhood begins our past, present and future...there is an eye to grab from every angle of our unreal dreams.As soon as the light makes its way through early patchworks of the morning's sky,we face majestic horizon to open before our eyes,full with mythological creatures to have lost their lands and dreams,and started hunting our obscurity to throw some light onto our lives and future,till recover our untold truths.
As a good catcher you could capture peerless drops of forecast to guide you through life toward your destiny,on condition you were brave enough to follow them.
I myself,or might be by mercy of someone else's will ,made a gateway for all the convey of two heads dogs,mystical phoenix to reborn anew from ashes,dragons with fire in their gullets and dark visitors from the hell to follow Lucifer after his fall from the heaven,to take me on their hidden paths,putting a great challenge before me,and testing my will and endurance.
There are no great successful stories without great dreams!
Now that dream is not my possession,at least not exclusive one,for i share them with all the row of mystic creatures to accompany me during my journey.By allowing them to come into my life i crossed the line between light and darkness,and hopefully expect my dream come true.I am aware that there must have been some mistake of mine,followed by punishment and obsession,after which i redeemed my sins.
I do not think how my presence is the only realm of my life.....There has always been another world and reality for me;every moment hath its past and future,unseen and smashed civilizations,some projected landscapes waiting for new dreamers.
There was no way to come back soon i left my foot on the sky blue path..i knew that a return always led to disaster and misery.There is still present an image of Lot's wife to turn into a pillar of salt for being heedless.
Worlds vanish and new ones rise.. ....
The same is about life,having lost previously one,you build and live new dream.Every possible attempt to change course of own destiny is a gamble, faced with all possible scenarios and outcomes.Freedom is a devil's work,it gives you so much,but it could take away the all from you in the blink of an eye.
Freedom takes a distant behavior,or at least empowers you to make a choice of few things you like best and the rest to leave for the others.I am sure you hold in memory some tales to rest now on a shelf in your room,with taste of dust like a hero entering into cave with lost treasure,to seize the all,unless there is no a catch...and there is always one.....sometimes it was a secret floor to open and swallow them,or a pike to punch their bowels,maybe a monster to live deep in hidden chamber,or an adder winding its way..
Now it is the legend about Holy Grail to inevitably catch mine and everyone's attention for its most attractive secret of eternal Youth.There were many who tried to steal the secret,and lots of legends emerged over the centuries.My instinct tells me that everyone made win over the Kingdom of secret worlds,you need to stay true to yourself and let all creatures on service in lost lands to visit and reign over you,or to stand hunting of a neglected and jealous being coming right from the darkness.

I am willing to unwrap my magical  packet with hidden knowledge and share it with you...for what the purpose of Beauty is,if it is not seen by someone else's eye?In addition ,my secret is mystic folded,quite opposite to many which are bald and dreadful,and that way alluring and pleasant for making a record in one's memory.In the end,every one of them becomes visible as there is no one with wings powerful enough to run away and bury  themselves for good.
First pictures to dig their pit to the surface of my earliest days and stay trapped there,reach back to my age of four years......i am dressed in a short and plaid coat,and my father holds me in his arms;i believe it was on a special occasion.There is another one to be early memorized,about a big fire set in the center of my village during the carnival celebration to take place during the winter time.I still remember that amazing fire,flames of which,rose high into the shadow.

Being thoughtful since my childhood,when i made my first steps into conscious exploration of life around me,natural way of my development had to be the meditation.Loneliness and an isolated place were not strange and hard for me to stand;sometimes it was sitting on a branch of the tree in my village yard.The first five years of my life i spent in my birthplace,some 32 km from the town where i live now.The most impressed in early meditation was a recall,nestled in my inner being,to whisper me how my 'strange' and mystic forecast was postponed till my mature age .....Expectation is like a hunter of dirty landscapes and misty sky players,in your fancy,while painting a canvas,you hope to paint most beautiful ones.Even the darkest scenery is in your reach to make new wonder.

Whether for reasons to spring from such distinct part of my life or not, i was late in maturing.Then,having reached the predicted time,it came like a storm followed by surges,unforeseen phenomenons,and some odd abeyance;a visitor got out of darkness and put me on temptations.I found myself questioning if i was closer to God,or i fell in disgrace of invisible,dangerous and underground forces.The obsession is not an easy experience,followed by a variety of unpredictable forces and deviations.
There is a different destiny for everyone to wait for the right time and begin unrolling them,by discovering plenty of attributes to make each of us unique.
What appears to be outstanding in the dawn of your initial steps,is the ability to recognize first signs marked in your birth card and to follow them,because your future depends on observing and interpretation of the foretoken.I was lucky to catch my vision and had courage to wait for its unrolling along with all the consequences and transformations on my way.One day as i mastered it and pulled myself out of the swirl,i could look on myself like a new born being.It is really about new birth,as Jesus Christ happened to emerge among living world again after his death.Jesus' personal story and the wreath of all events to belong to the history now,stayed a puzzle for us.....we can believe or being suspicious about many things;but who would believe in my complete confession after i shed a bit of light into my personal experience?There are some TRUTHS to stay unknown and invisible for the rest of the world.

I can't get away from an impression that a 'secret' had to be told,if not of Jesus Christ's then someone else's....there must be one greatest in any event!My human sense,having been tempted by the very beginning with one's mischievousness to look for power and dominance,casted an anchor at the presence with something wonderful,unusual and strange....i cannot stand poor and naked reality......I am eternal traveler to wander between darkness and lightness,looking for a lost path and finding a new one,again and again.The truth once given to us,was taken and left to rest in some inapproachable place;what we have now are our dreams we go after lost royal buildings and high bastions to leap over into the garden of paradise,freed from every hurt and evil....
We need strangeness and miracles,unnamed sources,mystical fountains,lost manuscripts,forgotten words,dried up rivers,perished civilizations,we need to dig deep into earth looking for ancient bones of extinct animals,or to study the archetypal manuscripts to get into knowledge of our origin;we seek lost tracks and watch remote stars and constellations in effort to reach new civilizations.

Simply,our own story would be so miserable and bared without such a stunning flavor of unknown and mystic.

I celebrate unknown forces coming into my life and make some exceptional events and  transformations.I am grateful for mercy to come down on me and present me with beautiful gift.My secret lies in power to win old age and stay young forever;there is a mystery around it,and as i said i love them and regard to be necessary in my life.Every obscure detail from the past keeps some secret and important mystical revelation.It seeks a way to seduce and cheat us with sparkling background and illusion of a rainbow,that seems so easy approachable and in our reach.
Anyway, if you cheat on me,let it be a beautiful delusion.

Red Dragon


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Thursday, November 3, 2011

The Mystery of God

One of the most glorious moment ever in the entire Universe,was the birth of an especial creature on Earth to open the door into cognizable worlds and trace the path back to the very source of their origin.By the will of his Majesty, a magnificent moment greeted the dawn of Humanity.
Born in loneliness,while the Lord looked upon own creation,and wished to accompany him with Cherubim,Dominions,Archangels,Angels,and the rest of angelic beings,the man became genuine and loyal follower of the creation and its most beautiful sibling-Nature.

Appolo and Aurora

A man has risen from most beautiful nature's decor:flowers,rivers,mountains,landscapes,heaven,clouds,Sun's rays.....everything gave their primary and most beautiful features in endeavor to overcome his loneliness,and make all the ambient around vivid and in favor of a man.That way,Beauty was inevitably embedded in like one of the most impressive characteristics we share with nature.All the colors mixed their most seducing hues and kept hold of the secret formula, allowing to the viewer nothing but enjoyment and pleasure of being part of dancing beauty.
White,black,red,green,blue..purple..all is on your disposal to lend their robes and shroud yourself for a magnificent appearance.
The most mysterious secret in the focus of human interest,and most wanted to be solved,has always been their origin.And science stayed in silence until these days about solving that mystery.In my mind,as i trying to reach that moment of conceiving the birth of my first ancestor,i transfer my thoughts back into the past.Suddenly,the path becomes a pure reflection of one remote and crystal glowing destination,exposed somewhere in the future and beyond reasonable cognition... some farthest place in Universe..a star,planet.......hidden resort to be unknown till now?
It is like traveling back in time to meet own future in one point,somewhere in infinity of space and time!An astonishing idea and vision,perceptible and alluring,the way to meet your double and first blood cousins.There might be a sparkling particle fell from the space to cross distances and reach Earth.
If we were to go along that imagined line,we could join past and future and get us united in one single point.....without past and future..just one single MOMENT!
Imagine Yourself in such a magnificent glimpse of time,and you could feel all the mystery of existence!All the distinction between now and forever,what was and will be,birth and death,....everything happens to vanish by moving themselves aside and giving a pass to a wonderful feeling of flying into the longest place you could ever reach in imagination.

Such a FREEDOM solves man's most attractive desire ...eternal life and Youth.
We can feel the importance of being NOW and breathing in this moment,without loading ourselves with the burden of unnecessary thoughts.The all which matters and makes life,has been merged in just one snatch!

I think about it like my new birth and the moment i am renewed;I shall think of myself like the revelation of a new star,or powerful might floating the space to give a birth to everything.

I shall think of myself like being a particle of Almighty's gorgeous embodiment.The very source of my birth is the place where my ending hours on earth would have rested...birth and death,there is no difference ...It is continual chain of all the cycles in Universe,and i know that the strength of my being and all the energy floating my body will prolong their lasting into the future.It is pure magic captured in the obscurity of my awareness and nakedness of my organism.And it is only on You to recognize them and reign all the possibilities lying before you.Learn to use gifts of Nature and pulsing cosmos,to revive yourself,and make your organism radiate,feed itself and give own energy back to outer surrounding,to mix consciousness contracted in mind with Universe's unique and transparent nature.

And the all becomes miracle...i shall give my face the shape i wish
It will glow the color i hold in my vision
My look becomes embodiment of my desire'
My own Beauty is manifest CREATION..i make BEAUTY in a way i wish and love it!
Your unique beauty will get the meaning and radiate the way you show yourself to the outer world!The strength of your mind and thoughts modeled by its will,make your look be seen like most alluring ; you only allow beauty to be fed properly.In essence it is ENERGY with all the characteristics and vibrations spring from your being.You hold and master them on your own..

Having said Beauty,i assume it is all about your YOUNG look alike...BEAUTY is foreseen to carry all the purity of your skin,without any line to rough surface in its reflection.

Active role of the brain is driving force,and every imagined projection you make,sources in the brain;there is a passage to find and allow the flow of all energy.I myself name the mind being holy grail of eternal youth.
Once you mastered the craft of letting stream of particles travel from mind throughout the rest of organism,is a way recognized for ever.The energy pulses,similar to strokes of a clock,it pumps vivid impulses and absorbs new incentives in every glimpse of time.
What streams through your body has fueled with is pad from which your desire begins its journey from your brain,gives a command,and being received,becomes jointed with the strength of mind's waves to bring all them back to the body.It is continual circle of feeding your mind to transit projected images into pores of your body;an exercise to practice in every bit of your lifetime.It is the heart of keeping your YOUNG look alive!

The heart never stops pumping blood to keep you alive.Mind's activity is additional source for feeding every ingredient of your being,and its main function is ability to command the cells of your organism;It takes only your will to send orders which will lead you to the keeping Young look in every time of your life.


To get out of the close and recognizable circle of happenings,we shall open the window into magnificent and splendid Nature to coat ourselves with all the brightness coming from heaven's blueness,cloud's artworks brushed on the sky,sparkles of dancing air,greenish glow of drizzled grass,mottle of seducing landscapes,sparkling bats of mountain's waterfalls,foamy purity of air in the stunning hills.....we shall clear blurred scenery around,and let them become part of our sensing and absorbing reality.
We shall let the beauty of some remote times reach us in all abundance,and find us never lost in oblivion of one moment which decided our destiny would stay merged with the beautiful framed picture posted by an inscrutable might.The mystery is lasting ingredient of eternal beauty and youth.

Our CREATOR left us with a living memory of his heritage and the key to decipher its mystery leading to eternal Youth.

Appolo and Aurora
Gerard de Lairesse
Metropolitan Museum of Art
New York


Beauty of God's Word
by Gerard Hallock

I have found this book,under the title"Beauty of God's Word" as the result of my searching for old ones since it is my passion;i am really lucky with books,think of running across most beautiful,and believe it is because of my love of reading.She is special for me even more,for it is associated with my writing on staying young /beautiful/The author found his inspiration in God's words,referring to love and devotion ,as well as all the rest of divine characteristics ,to be main source of being beautiful.They come from inside of our beings and make us so lovely.I have not opened the Bible in order to express my thoughts, but what i wrote came right from my mind and heart and completely corresponds the holy book.Through my stories you will feel the same strength and source to come from my inner being, fed by nature's beauty,and to be the essence of staying young and beautiful.Take from nature and God's creation abundance and "grow lovely" as it says Gerard Hallock.
p.s. i never look for them before i have finished my writing,to avoid any influence,and so i am very nice surprised every time i find similarities in the way i and 'unknown' author think and build our stories.

Becoming Beautiful

"But we all,with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord,are changed into the same image from glory in glory even as by the spirit of the Lord"

"A Christian is sure to grow lovely by just loving,-by just going on in love for Christ.It has been fabled from old times that the graceful swan was changed from a most ugly bird into its present beauty,merely because of its constancy to its mate"

"The soul grows wondrously lovely just by loving,by pouring out its faithful affection"